The Romancing Venus Saga

Black & Blue

2008-03-31T01:03:00.000-07:00

Black & Blue

Gusto ko mambugbog ng tao saka magmura. Bakit? Trip ko lang. I'll take on volunteers. lmao.

Guess Who's Back Bitch

2008-03-28T23:32:00.000-07:00

Guess Who's Back Bitch

Tada! I have reincarnated from the ashes like a phoenix. Ok maybe not.

I have snapped out from an unworldly blogging comatose and I've spent 3 hours of my precious time browsing through my friends' friendster accounts (how redundant) and poking my nose into their lives. Yes, I admit. I have been a very bad friend and I am clueless as to what most of them have been up to. Andaming nagtatampo! I am really so sorry lalo na sa mga kabarkada ko. The million dollar question: "Cory, anong nangyari sa'yo?"

Short answer: "Eto, naglahong parang bula st sumulpot na parang kabuti."

Long answer: "Eto nagdepres-depressan. Nawalan ng coping mechanism sa mga nangyayari sa buhay ko. Nagpaka walang kwenta. Nagpaka adik (no illegal substance included here). Naging instant single... Bumagsak sa nclex, nadepress lalo."

I guess that's the main reason why I hibernated for so long and why I lost touch with my friends. Nahiya lang ako kasi I felt such a failure. Feeling ko kasi na feeling na mga tao sa paligid ko na ang tali-talino ko pero I messed up. Na we were picture perfect ni Dani but we had to part because of the friggin distance. These past months have all been a teary blur and here I am, blogging about my not-so-graceful life in the land of the free and the home of the brave. Alleluia to that.

But thank God I'm kinda back to my old perky self again. I may have fucked up with my test, may have felt like shit before but now I'm rejuvenated and am determined not to give up. I'm not jobless and definitely not hopeless.

I have tons of things to blog about but right now I have to catch some sleep.

Toodles.

Isang Thorzine Ka Lang!

2007-10-01T01:05:00.000-07:00

Isang Thorazine Ka Lang!

So ok, it's 1:00am and I am freezing cold. I'm wearing a hoodie and a pair of socks yet still I feel like I'm trapped in an igloo or something. I'm currently taking my break from my (ulk) review. I decided to post some gibberish here since Friendster (my usual break thing) is on maintenance.

People often ask me how my review is going and all I can say is namamaga na utak ko, I swear. Someone please paki pasakan ako ng line ng Mannitol. Sukang suka na pati ako sa mga gamot at sa mga side effects kaya please kindly hand me some Phenergan. Kaasar! Ang hirap imemorize ng mga gamot!!! Magkaka alta presyon na ata ako at kailangan ko na uminom ng Capoten. I like Pharma but sadly it doesn't like me back at itong subject na to ang lowest ko in college ( that was Junior year). I got an 84 in Pharmacology (Yes, St. Paul schools don't use 1, 2, 3...that kinda thingamajigy grading. Instead we use old school-high school grading in percentage). Not true that I flunked on most of the tests but I did miss some of the quizzes which automatically ay bagsak ako. Oh did I mention that I got suspended in college for 5 days? Long story. I'll just post about it in the future.

Moving on, I wish I had powers na I would put my hand on top a book and magically be able to memorize its contents at once. That would be sweet. That would mean that I don't need to read and reread stuff about medication for ten times. Memorizing pa naman is not my strong point. Come to think of it, I have no strong point! Just kidding. Analysis siguro (uy feeling!). haha but stupid me, I have to know which is which first before I analyze anything right?

Plus I hate studying alone. I always get motivated when I have someone with me who's doing a similar task. Albeit I admit that I'm not a studious person, when I do decide to study lagi akong may kasama. That's why I liked it in the dorm kasi alam ko na pag sa bahay ako tatamadin lang ako unlike sa there mahihiya ako sa mga classmate ko na nag-aaral tapos ako pabanjing-banjing lang or sila nagpupuyat tapos ako knock-out na. Although kadalasan nakikipagdate pa din ako kahit na maraming test at requirement at pakalat kalat sa RP. Kailangan laging masaya and may time for fun! Arriba sa lovelife! haha.

And to top it all off, mahirap mag-aral ng hindi inspired! Haay buhay!

If I get through this and I pass, I promise na I would be a better daughter, sister, friend, girlfriend, citizen (pati ito kasama haha). Lord, PLEASE let me pass and I swear that I would be forever indebted... Now that's what I call bargaining!!! haha. Kaya kayo, people who are reading this, kindly be good friends and pray for me that I pass the nclex. I'm getting all jittery now.

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For all those who left tags, I will get back to you after my so-called Hiatus. Till then, au revoir.

In Hiatus

2007-09-15T08:15:00.000-07:00

In Hiatus

Friends I just hafta take a much needed break from going online. The geek in me takes over when I'm in front of a computer that my brain goes on hyperdrive that at the end of the day I find myself too lazy to even open my NCLEX reviewer. I won't post here for a month or so but I'll still visit my favorite blogs. Don't delete me on your blogroll! haha and please pray for me on my upcoming licensure exam.

Wish me all the luck!

We Got Whooped

2007-09-04T02:31:00.000-07:00

We Got Whooped

Ang mga trip nga naman ng mga Pinoy na iset na record...kung hindi sa breastfeeding eh sa kissing (well atleast hindi katulad ng mga Jap na ang trip eh couples having sex at the same time). But sad to say kasi like what my post's title says, we got our asses whooped again and this time the Hungarians made sure na malayo layo ang dapat habulin ng mga organizer ng Lovapalooza because from the previous record of 6,613 smooching couples, they distanced it to 7,451 pairs of lip-lockers this time around. Can the Filipino people save up all their saliva till next February? Pagdasal nyo lang na sana mas madaming tamabay at jologs ang pumunta sa Lovapalooza at mas maraming lalake ang magpropose next year at the said event. Oh and more bands won't hurt either.

we be whooping them asses come February

I've gone to Lovapalooza once. Twas a great memory since I went there with some friends and Dani (no we didn't kiss, I had to go back sa dorm early cause of the curfew). Fun din naman siya kaso super daming tao. Well depende naman kasi yan sa trip nyo. I bet it'll be in MOA next year since Mayor Lim made chupe all the stalls and restos in baywalk (ang KJ nya). If nasa Pinas ako baka pumunta ako but I don't think I'd be home then so I'll just watch it in the news. I'll go look for your faces na lang. lol. Go beat those Hungarians!

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Info and Image from Yahoonews.

Ate's Big Day, 1st Times and More

2007-09-02T12:19:00.000-07:00

Ate's Big Day, 1st Times and More

Since I'm in my tamad mood to study again lulubusin ko na. lol. Consecutive kasi ang mga occasion - my eldest ate's 2-day birthday celebration (twas her birthday last Aug. 31, she's 28 na!) with our house celeb last friday where I cooked spaghetti then we bought cake, the so-called Ultimate Chocolate Cake over at Raley's (na pangalan pa lang pamatay na). Yey! Tapos today ate's boyfriend treated us at Applebee's. Twas sweet of him nga. Uy first time ko dun! haha! Sorta like a Friday's, Chilli's kinda thing going on. Oh yeah and tomorrow we're going to San Leandro for a Filipino Fiesta there. 1st time again! lol.

Moving on, we went malling after para magpababa ng kinain at kasi madaming sale ngayon since malapit na ang Labor Day. Super mura! The other day nga kuya went to JC Penney tapos nakabili si kuya ng rubber shoes na Nike na $15 lang! wahaha! biruin mo yun Php660 lang! Parang Greenhills Class A price! Papasalubong daw nya kung kanino man, as if naman uuwi na. Ako napabili ako kahit na I'm trying to be super frugal since wala pa kong work. I bought a pair too kanina. Twas only 20 bucks (Php800) at super ganda pa. Not bad! Not bad talaga! Kahit pa 3rd pair of rubber shoes ko na yun dito. haha. Kasi early this year bumili din ako ng white pair (sa Rob Place pa yun) tapos ate gave me another pair na gray. Ang masasabi ko lang: a girl cannot have enough shoes and bags! Wuhoooo!

At saka magagamit ko naman yun. Bakit? Oh kasi eto na I'm trying to lose weight na talaga. Tama na ang pagpapakawala with an excuse na "I wanna try this and that," since every food here is new to my virgin Pinoy tastebuds. I swear I gained weight talaga! Sorry Lord! Taga sa bato I won't pig out anymore. Sabi nila pag bago ka sa States tataba ka talaga. Yung kabarkada ko when she went here for a vacation last June, she gained 15 lbs for her short 3 week stay. Anyway, nung bago ako dito, hala! Hindi nawawalan ng ice cream sa freezer and I super super heart ice cream! As in uber sweet tooth talaga ako kaya nga ang ending ang ice cream hindi nagtatagal ng 2 days, feeling ko kasi every meal should end with a cup of it! Kaya ayun, ubos agad! lol. Tapos kuya would buy cakes pa and I would be the one to choose pa the flavor. Tsk. But in fairness, hindi na ngayon! I have control na. Ang ice cream nagtatagal na ng 2 weeks. I also asked kuya to stop buying cakes. No more round two na din when eating for me.

But as you all know, cutting down on food will not work by itself. You hafta exercise as well to burn calories and hype your metabolism. I've been telling my ate na if I have work na that I'll enroll myself in a gym with her. Recently she transferred her membership to the newly built 24 Hour Fitness gym that's about 10 minutes away from our place. Sinama nya ko kanina since it was her 1st day. 1st time again na makapasok sa 24 Hour Fitness! lol. Oh and just so you know, that gym is like the McDonald's of health buffs, sikat madami and big. It has 370 clubs nationwide and it's the gym that sponsors The Biggest Loser show. Ang counterpart nya: sorta like Fitness First sa Pinas. And I tell you, today's a saturday and 8:30 kami ngpunta but I swear nagulat ako sa sobrang daming tao. Walang sinabi ang dami ng tao sa Fitness First sa RP! Wala sa kalahati even. Extremes talaga dito sa states, sobrang daming obese at syempre madami ding weight conscious. I liked the gym, especially the pool and the sauna!!! That I really like. I promise to enroll talaga when I have work na but in the mean time working out sa bahay will do.

Haha todo na to! Pag hindi pa ko pumayat aba ewan ko na lang.

Near Death XP

2007-08-30T01:53:00.000-07:00

Near Death XP

I had the worst kind of headache last night. It was the meanest, most bad-ass physical pain I've experienced in my entire life. I cried again for a number of hours last night while I was talking to Dani over at ym (long story - am in no mood to divulge). I mean I didn't bawl or anything, I just sniffed a lot and blew my nose now and then plus the added stress must've caused some tension too overwhelming for me to take. Yes I know I should know better and I know I should've taken some pain meds but I was in no mood to eat either (NSAIDS are to be taken with food) and besides it was 3am by then ayoko din bangungutin (nightmares translated medically as Acute Pancreatitis).

I lay there in my bed for an hour or so thinking, pondering, musing (which all made my head hurt even more). I put all my pillows below my head (feeling ko lang may IICP ako haha) and although I wasn't vomiting nor was I losing consciousness, I really thought that hindi na ko magigising. Cerebral aneurysm ang drama nito! lol. I swear. I'm not over exaggerating. I really thought that I wouldn't be able to see the light of day anymore. I thought of how people would react to my death and how sad people who are close to me will be. I thought of my future and of Dani and of my friends and family. I couldn't think straight anymore. The pain was killing me even as I thought of demise. But I couldn't die now, I thought, I still had so many things I wanted to do with my life and besides, I had no suicidal tendencies and I can't die because of some stupid headache brought about by some heartache.

Then everything went blank.

By the time I opened my eyes, sunshine was already pouring through the window in the bedroom and the headache was gone. Thank God I'm alive, I said to myself, I'm too young to die. I got up from bed, made coffee and everything was back to normal - another study day for me. (not until I saw Willie making drama about Joey De Leon on TFC, oh but that's another story...)

Big C for Congrats!

2007-08-26T12:47:00.000-07:00

Big C for Congrats!

i Love it! Top 3 ang St. Paul University Manila with a 97% passing rate for the June 2007 nursing board exam! O ha ha say nyo dun? Batch ko yan! Galing ng Notorious 92 man! Pa-add lang na top 1 ang St Paul. University Iloilo tapos top 3 naman ang Manila Campus! Shet! woot wooooot! 2 St Paul Schools in the Top 3 roster. Heavy! Congrats batchmates! RN na! Paulinian nurses rock!

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Go here for the list of names of the June 2007 Nursing Board Examination passers.

Confessions of a Pinoy TV Junkie

2007-08-14T01:45:00.002-07:00

Confessions of a Pinoy TV Junkie

I must confess. I am in love and that seeing that person is something that I really look forward to in everyday of my oh-so-boring life. When I look up unto his face, the lights seem to dim and the music starts to play and oh, I just fall for him over and over again. I sigh at the sound of his voice and my knees tremble at the sight of his countenance. Andrew has swept me off my feet and I relish every second of it. Yes, I am in love and it feels so good...

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I'm in love with Andrew Amarillo (Ryan Agoncillo of Ysabella) and Andrew Angeles (Jake Cuenca of Natutulog ba ang Diyos?). And yes, I am a reformed teleserye junkie. I used to hate ate Elsa (St. Paul Manila Residence Hall aka dorm head/keeper), for not giving us any chance to watch any show other than Pangako Sa'yo, Sa Piling Mo, Krystala and the sort at night. In truth, I found it so bakya that I didn't bother to watch TV at all. Buti kung koreanovela pa yun! It's just that when I think of Pinoy telenovelas before, a very very long and dragging plot comes to mind sort of like that of Mara Clara at ang walang patumanggang pag-aagawan sa diary at locket na umabot ng ilang taon hanggang sa nagpuberty na ko.

Never in my wildest imaginations did I think that I would watch sinseryes religiously as much as I watch them now. Call it baduy, jologs or corny but I actually couldn't care less. Fact is: they're rather entertaining and the a lot of the plot's changed. They feature lighter gists now, the story line makes more sense and they finish faster sans kidnapping and the grandiosity of exploding cars and people. My love story with teleseryes started when I arrived here in California. I tuned in to TFC and GMA Pinoy TV for most of my bum states and that includes watching ABS-CBN's Prime Time Bida. What transpired between me and Maria Flordeluna was love at first sight. I was immediately hooked and so were my ate and kuya. Kuya would always ask me to wake him up just so he can watch even if he's super tired from work. And my ate - she cried with Jo when the boat carrying Leo exploded. But hey, did Maria Flor really had to die in the end? That was just too sad.

Don't get me wrong. I too watch American shows like Grey's Anatomy, House MD and Heroes and they're really great but maganda din naman ang Filipino made. Plus you get to relate with most of the stuff that they show. So if you're still not watching you better get hold of that remote and press 2 or 7. I promise, maaliw ka din as much as naaliw ako. But like everything you still hafta be selective of what you pick to watch.

My personal favorites are Natutulog ba and Diyos? and Ysabella. The former's actually a remake of a drama film (under the same title) that starred Lorna T. Watching it would make you hate Rosanna Roces to the guts and pity and admire Roxanne Guinoo so much that you would want to put her up unto a pedestal and maybe make her a saint. The love story between Jake Cuenca and Roxanne Guinoo hasn't blossomed yet so you can still catch up with what you've missed (hindi pa huli ang lahat para sumubaybay!).

The latter's an original drama/comedy script. At in all fairness super ganda sya! It's very light and fun to watch and every episode's a definite must-see. Kudos to the writers of ABS-CBN for coming up with such an original story revolving around the love for cooking. Ok din ang love triangle nila Juday, Derek Ramsey and Ryan Agoncillo. Gina Pareno's punch lines will also leave you with a lot of kabag.

If you like Papa Piolo go ahead and watch Walang Kapalit. But warning kasi I believe mejo patapos na sya. Hands down also to Jodi Sta. Maria because I stopped watching that series because of her. I wanted to stranggle her so much because she never failed to evoke anger in me whenever. Saksakan sya ng maldita I swear! And if only may Urian and ang mga teleserye, ay wagi siya no doubt!

Don't watch Kokey. Hindi sya okey. Hindi ko nga ba alam, sana hindi na lang sya naglanding sa dos. Watching him would bring you nightmares. Believe me. Kung gusto mo bangungutin, go ahead suit yourself. It's either sa mukha ni Kokey o sa kaarethan ni Ruffa Guttierez ka magigimbal.

As for Margarita, yeah I liked the promotional photo they did. I also liked the costume but other than that I couldn't find anything else to like. Sorry Wendy and Bruce.

The last Teleserye I watched at GMA was Asian Treasures. It was good at the start but all the Datu Puti, Datu Sumakwel, Datu Dumalogdog, Datu Paduhinogan and Sudama stuff was just too much (ang hirap nila bigkasin noh?). It turned out to be a flop in the end and all the traveling to Thailand, China and Mongolia couldn't quite make up for the lack-luster story. Besides it was an Indiana Jones-Lara Croft rip-off anyway.

Matanda na kayo! Bahala na kayo kung kapuso or kapamilya ang tatangkilikin nyo basta ako ang alam ko mahal ko ang dalawang Andrew! Alien?

Alien.

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Images and some info from Wikipedia.

Raving

2007-08-07T17:26:00.001-07:00

Raving

I wanna thank everyone who made comments, left messages in my tagbox and just about everybody for their support sa amin ni Dani. Don't worry. I'll keep you posted.

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Oh! We watched The Simpsons the other day. It was hella funny. Umpisa pa lang mukhang gago na si Homer. It was supposed to be PG-13 but there were a lot of kids sa sinehan at f na f nila ang pagkanta sa spider pig, spider pig does whatever a spider pig does...lalala... Actually kung may anak ako hindi ko talaga sya papanuorin ng Simpsons til 13 na sya. Besides s/he won't get the jokes about Arnold and Bush anyway. Siguro makikitawa lang sya kasi everybody's laughing but no the kid won't get the punch line. Ano naman paki ng bata dun?

love em!

Awww but the movie was too short. An hour and a half lang. And even if that wasn't my first time to watch a movie here in the states, I still can't get over kung gano kalaki ang popcorn at drinks dito. Kuya got a large popcorn and I swear to God yun ang pinakamalaking popcorn na nakita ko sa buhay ko. Haha! Malaki pa sa bucket ng KFC at yung drinks namin was a medium pero I swear to God uli that it was even bigger than a Biggie drink from Wendys. Para siya sa malaking mama! Saka here the popcorn sa movies is butter flavored lang not unlike sa Philippines na madaming variety. Oh well but who am I to complain? Hindi naman ako ang bagbayad, nakidukot lang ako.

For those na hindi pa nakakapanuod ng The Simpsons and has been a big fan (like me) ever since they were kids... Watch it! Para lang maaliw kayo. Oh and by the way click here if you wanna see how you look like as a Simpson. It's pretty cool. Check it out.

About a Boy

2007-08-03T14:40:00.000-07:00

About a Boy

For those who know me and who constantly read my blog, you know that I don't usually post stuff about my very very personal life especially pag dating na sa puso. I guess it's just me. I just don't want to broadcast to the world kung ano nangyayari sakin. Mataas ang pride ko. I do not want to look like a weakling most especially when I know that some of my closest friends read my blog ritually.

Tsk! Dani and his kadramahan. Oops sa red lips at katangusan ng ilong.

Malamang hirap na hirap na siguro ako. It literally breaks my heart when I think of Dani and worst of all I have no one to talk to. I've cried buckets of tears cause of him. I could still remember vividly in my mind the days when I was still in the Philippines, nung mga panahon na malapit na ko umalis, nung mga panahon na despedida ko, when I handed him my gift para sa birthday nya. I also handed Dani a letter before I left reminding him to always stay strong and that I will be with him though not physically. I made him a list of a 100 things that I loved about him para hindi siya masyadong malungkot and so that he'll always be reminded of how much I loved him and how much I appreciated all the stuff he did for me and how much I cherished the times when we were together. We hugged so tight and for so long to last us a couple of years, for the years that I had to be in the states, for the time we had to be apart. We cried like there was no tomorrow. I had to leave on the 28th of March and his birthday was on April 1. It was sad as hell but we couldn't do anything about it. Even before we met alam ko nang I had to leave for the states after ko magcollege. It was just something that's inevitable. Out of the 4 of my siblings, 3 sa kanila also went thru long distance relationships so parang it was just natural for me to be in one as well.

holding on

Ironically at the beginning I was ok. America was so new to me that everything fascinated me and for a while nalimutan ko yung lungkot. At that time I even managed to convince myself that I was happy and that I was about to fulfill the so-called American Dream that my mom aspired for me. But after a few weeks time, the distance started to take its toll and I soon found myself crying to sleep. At dahil sa feeling strong ako lagi, I didn't tell anyone how sad I was, not my ate or kuya and most especially not Dani. All I know was that I missed him terribly. Namimiss ko yung lambing, yung lagi akong may kakampi, yung laging may kakulitan. I would playback in my head things that we used to do together only to find myself wanting to be with him more and wanting more to go back home to the Philippines. I was homesick 70% of the time because of him. But I couldn't do anything kundi maghintay sa ym hoping he'd go online and to check my friendster account for messages from him or my gmail for hopes of an e-mail. The messages were plenty at the start but the numbers soon declined as time passed by. He was busy. He had problems. I made up excuses in my head to justify for his actions. And like the good girlfriend that I was, I waited diligently night and day to the point that it almost reached a month before we had a chance to talk again.

hmm, parang jacket ko yan ah!

One thing that I would always remember about Dani is when he'd get mad when I would say na mas mahal ko siya kesa sa mas mahal niya ko (kinikilig naman ako dun kaya agree naman ako. haha). For him, he just simply loved me more. He wanted to take care of me because I was his baby. I was always happy just as long as we were together and I loved it when he would go out of his way for me. He would go to my dorm (in Malate) when he gets off from work kahit na pa he'd only be able to see me sa tapat ng dorm for 30 minutes because of the curfew. He would wait for me sa National Bookstore (at Rob Place) kahit pa lagi akong late whenever we'd meet up hanggang sa nabasa na niya ang buong series ng Pugad Baboy sa kakaantay. But I never heard na nagreklamo siya, not once. I would always remember how he'd smile and brighten up pag nakita na niya ko kahit na pa 4 hours na siya nagaantay. One of our past time eh magbolahan kung gano kami kaswerte sa isa't isa. And boy was I lucky! Not only was he tall dark and handsome (he's 5'11''), mabait at mahal na mahal pa niya ko. I literally couldn't ask for more.

However, the distance and all the waiting had severed our connection. Sobrang hindi kame naguusap and right now, we're on the rocks, the worst that we have ever been. It sucks big time. And sometimes nararamdaman ko na baliktad na, that I love him more than he loves me. I hate telling him things because I feel that it somehow mentally emasculates him pero minsan pakiramdam ko para na din akong sirang plaka - paulit ulit, nakakasawa at nakakarindi. Albeit, naka ear plugs siya and he just doesn't hear me out.

I want to end things. He wants to give it another try. I know that I've had enough but I love Dani, yun ang problema. Akala ko wala na kong kayang iiyak pa but after we talked sobrang namugto nanaman mata ko that it left me light headed. How we are right now is so heartbreaking most especially when I think about how happy we were nung nasa Pinas pa ko. It makes me wonder if things would be any more different if only I didn't have to leave so soon and if only I had more time to spend with him. But thinking of what-ifs is just a waste of time because we are where we are, we just have to deal with it. I know he feels that I blame everything on him but the truth is I really don't. Alam kong nahihirapan siya and I should know better because I'm on the other end of the rope. Sobrang confused na ko about what to do that I just don't want to think anymore. All the hurt has left me numb to the core. Ipagpapasa-Diyos ko na lang. Siya na ang bahala. I trust Dani when he promised that he'll make it better this time. He just has to make it good. At kahit na sumama ang loob ko ng todo I still admire him because he was humble enough to admit his mistakes and to ask forgiveness for them. I'll leave it to him now to take care of the relationship and to take care of what's left of us...

Reading the Stars

2007-07-30T01:03:00.000-07:00

Reading the Stars

Do you read Horoscopes? I do from time to time. Wala lang. Masaya lang siya. I can't entirely say that I believe in them pero yung mga kumakalat sa friendster na if you're a sag you're like this and if you're an aries you're like that and so and so, hmmm... Pisces kasi ako (I'm an Edsa baby) and in fairness tumpak siya sa personality ko.

PISCES - The Addict EXTREMELY adorable. Intelligent. Loves to joke. Very Good sense of humor. Energetic. Predict future. GREAT kisser. Always get what they want. Attractive. Easy going. Loves being in long relationship. Talkative. Romantic. Caring.

Ooops! Sorry sa part that I'm a great kisser! haha! That I cannot confirm. Tanungin na lang mga nakahalikan ko. haha laswa! Pero true yung part that I can predict the future. Well, sorta. May pagka clairvoyant ako. I can sense (minsan) kung sino ang tumatawag and when I get to be called sa mga oral recitation. Weird nga! At higit sa lahat nasesense ko kung niloloko ako ng boyfriend ko. Inaaway ko yung 1st bf ko before just because I can sense that he's cheating on me even if I didn't have solid proof. Wala lang nasense ko lang bigla, which later turned out nga na he really was indeed cheating (huling huli sa cellphone!). Baka I'm just super intuitive. Saksakan din ako ng daldal and sa dorm where I stayed before (for 3 years when I was in college) hindi kami nakakapag aral masyado ng mga roommates ko (special mention again to Cors and Ate Fran) kasi puro kami kwentuhan. haha! Hyper ako, energetic, enthusiastic. Always alive and kicking. My classmates back in HS used to tell me na kapag absent ako ang tahimik daw ng classroom.

Anyway, my horoscope for today reads:

Pisces
February 18 - March 19
People might become a bit argumentative when it comes to romantic issues today, dear Pisces. Your instincts might be calling for you to restrain yourself and hold back while the prevailing winds of the day are urging you to strike out onto new ground. Realize that your heart may need a bit of freedom and detachment. Your sensitive nature may be causing you to read too much into the issues at hand.

What the hell does that mean? Sinyales na ba ito mula sa maykapal? It's f*ckin messing up my head again. Yun na!

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Horoscope provided by Astrocenter c/o MyMSN.

3 Things

2007-07-27T01:35:00.000-07:00

3 Things

Thanks Tami for the Tag. Eto ang aking 3 Things:

Three Things That Scare Me

1. Darkness and mumu.
2. Ipis especially pag lumilipad.
3. Chucky of Child's Play and Freddy Kreuger of Nightmare on Elm Street. Ang mga dahilan kung bakit nagpapasama ako umihi nung bata pa ko. *lol

Three People Who Make Me Laugh

1. family
2. Barx
3. roomies and superfriends: special mention to Cors and Ate Fran. Yiheee!

Three Things I Love

1. ice cream!
2. feel good songs and movies
3. kissing in the rain and stuff that leads to something else thereafter.

Three Things I Hate

1. Social climbers!
2. Mga buwaya sa gobyerno
3. Okra

Three Things I Don't Understand

1. Why a lot people think being emo/rakista/rasta is synonmymous to being cool.
2. How Filipinos discriminate one another and idolize the foreign, hence colonial mentality dagdag mo pa ang crab mentality.
3. Why Starbucks is an "in thing" considering na one tall/venti is equivalent to a day's allowance and how people claim to get to study better sa loob ng starbucks when it's crowded and noisy.

Three Things On My Desk

1. My fone
2. Glass of H2O.
3. Bank of America notepad.

Three Things I Am Doing Right Now

1. Sitting
2. Waiting
3. Wishing

Three Things I Want To Do Before I Die

1. Mag ganja ng 1 kilo (OA) sabay food trip ng ice cream.
2. Magpatattoo ng white tiger with green eyes sa bandang hips.
3. Have plenty of sex.

Three Things I Can Do

1. Magtule.
2. Magpaanak.
3. Magocho ocho.

Three Things I Can't Do

1. Tumbling sabay split.
2. Lick my elbow.
3. Speak Chinese.

Three Things I Think You Should Listen To

1. Pop Rock: The All-American Rejects, October Fall, Cute is What We Aim For, Powerspace, Paramore
2. Brit Rock: The Cinematics, Franz Ferdinand, Muse, Artic Monkeys, Keane, The Feeling, Snow Patrol, Kasabian, Radiohead, Editors, Aqualung, Razorlight
3. Emo: Funeral For a Friend, Dashboard Confessional, Fall Out Boy, Panic! At the Disco, My Chemical Romance, 30 Seconds to Mars, Taking Back Sunday, Hawthorne Heights, Senses Fail, The Starting Line, Death Cab for Cutie, Yellow Card, Boys Like Girls, Hellogoodbye, Saosin, Plain White T's, Angels and Airwaves

Three Things You Should Never Listen To

1. Emo (with all the shouting): Alexisonfire
2. Metal: Slapshock
3. Your mom nagging.

Three Things I Would Like To Learn

1. 3 more languages, namely: Spanish, Japanese and French.
2. Breaking (as in hiphop).
3. More web related stuff.

Three Favorite Foods

1. Pad Thai
2. Spicy Salmon Sushi
3. Almond Praline flavored ice cream.

Three Shows I Watched As A Kid

1. Bioman/Maskman/Masked Rider Black/Shaider (you name it)
2. Transformers/Voltron/Voltes V/Daimos
3. Dats Entertainment

The Hate

2007-07-20T09:14:00.000-07:00

The Hate

Thanks Cors for tagging me. So eto na ang kasagutan sa mga mahihiwagang katanungan:

1. Food you hate --> Okra! Why did God make such a slimy vegetable?

2. Fruits that you hate --> Dragonfruit. Weird at walang lasa.

3. Veggies that you hate --> Okra yun lang halos lahat naman kinakain ko.

4. Celebrities or people that you hate --> Binay! Abalos ! mga arroganteng tuta! saka si yasmien kurdi kasi feeling vegan activist ng peta eh to think na she just went vegan para pumayat tapos f na f nya ang animal cruelty. asus!

5. Event/Incident/Situation that you hate --> failures. saka being put in the middle.

6. TV Shows or Movies that you hate --> Asian Treasures at Impostora. Corny eh.

7. Type of Music that you hate --> Yung maingay. Hard core rock.

8. Household chore that you hate --> Plantsa and cleaning the bathroom. haha!

9. Things you hate about the world --> trapo and social climbers! colonial mentality and crab mentality.

10. Things that you hate about yourself --> na sobrang procrastinator ko.

Anyone who reads this can tag him/herself. Go ahead. Make my day.

Lucky

2007-07-19T10:45:00.000-07:00

Lucky

I'm proud of myself.

Last night when I stopped reviewing I found myself at page 208 of the thickest book I've attempted to read from cover to cover in my whole life. It's the book I'm reading for the NCLEX exam: Elsevier: Saunders Comprehensive Review for the NCLEX-RN by Linda Silvestri.

the magical book: a must read for my fellow NCLEX reviwers

It does have 1264 pages but atleast there's just about another thousand more pages to go right and roughly 57 chapters more to read. Not bad. I'm doing good with my studying but I surely can do better. Slacker pa din ako as compared to some. I'm just not the studying type kahit dati pa ako yung tipong nakikinig ng maigi sa klase at hindi nag-aaral. I would only study for big exams like midterms, periodicals and such. Pero here I am facing the biggest exam ever sa buhay ko that would either make or break my career at eto ako't nagsusumikap mag-aral. My batchmates back in the Philippines kung hindi bum eh nagwwork na mostly sa call center while waiting for the result of the local board exams. Sometimes naiinggit ako kasi sila may work na while ako still reviewing (by myself). It's as if feeling ko napag iwanan ako and sila they're having a blast and having the grandest time of their lives sa Pinas. But come to think of it, isn't that every BSN grad's dream is to go to the states and be able to work here? Well eto na ko! Walang kahirap hirap na nakarating sa Amerika. People would always tell me how lucky I am, lucky that I'm an immigrant with all its perks. Sure maswerte ako but I still think maswerte din ang mga taong nasa Pilipinas. Being here and being there has its ups and downs. It's a matter of perspective and it can be lonely here sometimes. But atleast I can already see my goal's end and just a wee bit more push would get me past the finish line. I could already taste the sweetness of victory.

Malapit na kong maging RN!

Pressure Defined

2007-07-14T11:56:00.000-07:00

Pressure Defined

Thanks for to everyone who voted for me last week at dahil 3rd place ako (not bad sa 1st time nomination) I'm still in the run for being CG's Filipino Blog of the Week but now for week 65 na! So go go go! Vote for me ROMANCINGVENUS Poll's at the sidebar. <<<<

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Ano ang pananaw mo sa salitang pressure?

Yesterday my sister-in-law, ate Charry, just received news from the California Board of Nursing that she friggin passed the NCLEX! At first take! Mind you that there's roughly only 60+% of foreign country based grads who pass that darn test for the first time as compared sa mga dito naggraduate na 80+%. Her test stopped at no. 75 (the minimum no. of test items) at pumasa sya. Pakshet! Ang galing nyaaaaaa! I'm so happy for her. Oh she cried when she called her dad to report the good news and thanked everyone for their prayers. Ano ba naman nakakapagtaka dun? Eh hello? HS valedictorian sya. UP Cum Laude pa. Scholar pa sya sa Arellano (where she earned her BSN degree, 2nd courser sya). Hinakot na nya lahat! Duguan ang kalaban.

Then she called my mom.

Ate Charry: Mommy, nurse na po ako! (sabay singit kuya ko)
Kuya: Mommy, asawa na po ako ng nurse! (they talked for a while bago pinasa sakin)
Mommy: (to me) O ikaw mag-aral ka na. Wag kang pabigat jan nurse na si ate Charry mo. Kailangan ikaw din pumasa ka at one take. Nakakahiya sa mga kapatid mo jan...

Now I can define pressure. It's not to say that I'm not happy. Sus me! Napaka sama ko namang tao kung hindi ako matutuwa at sarili ko lang ang iisipin ko pero in all honesty napressure din ako. All eyes are on me now most epecially at tapos na ang kalbaryo ni ate Charry at pumasa na siya. Ako naman ngayon. Malapit na ang September, inaantay na ko ng NCLEX. Sana ako din pagtanggap ko ng letter it would say na I passed the test. How I wish na maiyak din ako tuwa that I could exclaim to my mom, "Mommy, nurse na ko! Whoooooh!," that I could thank my friends for their support and prayers and tell them the good news, that I could hug ate, ate Charry and kuya not because I need comfort but because I want to share with them all the happiness welling up inside me.

At yan ang rason kung bakit hindi ako nakakapagpost as often as I want sa blog ko. It's because I want to make all those things happen. It's not suffice to just dream about it and wish with all my might for it to happen. Kahit pa I have no patience whatsoever sa pag-aaral kailangan ko magsumikap. Besides things like lab Values, therapeutic diets, and how to's in telemetry reading won't and will never magically pop into my head. I am pressured. Pressure sans surrender. I'm not about to give up. Pray for me.

Of Bebeng and Her Friends

2007-07-10T23:44:00.001-07:00

Of Bebeng and Her Friends

Una sa lahat gusto ko magpasalamat sa mga bumoto sakin and to take this opportunity to campaign... fellow bloggers: dear friends in real life and real friends in blog life, PLS VOTE FOR ME as FILIPINO BLOG OF THE WEEK! Poll's at the sidebar. Just click on ROMANCINGVENUS and submit. It won't take a minute off your time plus I'll be forever indebted to you. Win-win situation tayo.

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Parating na si Bebeeeeeng!!!

Aba! Kahit nasa Amerika ako I'm still updated with the majority of what's happening in the Philippines. At yun na nga parating na si Bebeng the Bagyo!

One of my fondest memories nung bata pa ko ay yung mga times na bumabagyo. Ano pa nga ba ang pinagdadasal ng mga estudyante kundi masuspend ang klase. Admittedly I was one of those. We would tune in early either sa radio or sa TV (or both) hoping for a news announcement declaring that there weren't any classes. Sisilip kami sa bintana ng mga kapatid ko just to see if may baha na. Magtataklob ng kumot, babaluktot sa kama habang nagluluto ang mom ko ng champorado or arroz caldo. Heartbroken kapag narinig mo na ang busina ng school bus dahil sinyales na ng hindi pagdinig ng pagdadasal mo. What a classic. Aaaah pag bumabagyo nga naman. Twas definitely sweet for students! There was even a time na pinasok ang bahay namin ng baha and in the street the flood water was chest-high, but a kid as I was, I found it amusing. We even videotapped it (VHS pa nun). Believe it or not ang mga neighbor namin na mga foreigner, aba! May ngjjetski ba naman! May namamangka din! Akalain mo nga naman yun! Ginawa ba namang beach! You can just imagine how giddy I was as a child, the atmosphere was almost festive. Yun nga lang inis na inis ang mom ko kasi lumubog TV namin at kotse oh but I couldn't care less. It was a perfect excuse not to come to school.

champorado, arroz caldo anyone?

I've also had my fair share of paliligo sa ulan. When I was in elementary, my mom would join me and my ate sa park katabi ng bahay namin. We would take turns pushing each other sa swing and climbing up the slide. At kahit pa putik putik na kami, go lang ng go. After nun we would play tumbangpreso kahit pa napaka lakas ng ulan. Bata pa ko nun and for sure I couldn't do that anymore, baka kung anu-ano pa ang bumakat, kuya wouldn't approve not unless patakas. How I miss those days. Ang ulan nga naman, definitely a part of every Filipino's life.

Since I arrived here sa California, it has only rained once. It doesn't rain much here in the states. Sinama ko pa naman sa balibayan box ko ang paborito kong payong only to find out that nobody uses an umbrella here. I really miss rainy days in the Philippines...

Pag uwi ko maliligo ako sa ulan.

Something Something

2007-07-09T18:33:00.000-07:00

Something Something

I got tagged by Quincy! So in response here's 7 random somethings about me that most people don't know:

1. (The Classic Story behind my name) Ang buong ngalan ko ay Maria Corazon Victoria Chua de Guia. Ang haba noh? Anyway Edsa baby ako. Literally my mom was giving birth to me while my dad was out in the street rallying. So yun na nga...Maria for the shrine of Mary sa may Edsa, Corazon because of Cory Aquino and Victoria para manalo, for victory...In other words: pinaglaruan pangalan ko.

2. Nakasali na ko ng rap contest when I was in HS. I've also done singing contests pero laging 2nd or 3rd place, never champion.

3. I taught myself how to ride a bike. I learned how to when I was 14, stopped riding when I was 15 kasi nabunggo ako sa kotse. It was parked.

4. I'm 110% Pinoy in heart and spirit though I'm part Chinese, Spanish and Irish.

5. Inaasar akong Vincent, Hiei from Ghostfighter (Yuyu Hakusho), nung bata ako because I have a scar sa gitna ng forehead ko, parang 3rd eye.

6. I watch Ysabella because I think Judai and Ryan look good together.

7. and lastly, I dream to fly a kite in Luneta the next time I come home to the Philippines...

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In turn I'd like to tag Cors, Eden, Kc, Zack, Fionixe, Tami, and Ayel. As part of the rule, each person I tagged has to tag another seven. Keep on blogging!

Wag Kang Magreklamo

2007-07-08T14:47:00.000-07:00

Wag Kang Magreklamo

Ewan ko ba. Is it me or do people become more aware than they really are kapag umaalis sila sa bansa? It's as if nakipagbreak ka sa boyfriend mo that you realize the worth of a person kapag wala na siya. Don't get me wrong, matagal na kong aktibista sa utak ko and matagal na kong ahemm...nationalistic to the core. However, leaving the Philippines just gave me a heavier tug sa puso ko. Something gnawing at me telling me na magsumikap ako lalo.

I read a certain essay lately written by a Korean student way back '03 when she came to the Philippines. It tackled about how Filipinos lacked love for our own country. It struck me nung sinabi nya na, "Have you cried for the Philippines?" And so I ask you this time, have you? Because I certainly have countless times. I said it sa comment ko dun and I'll say it again here. Kahit ano pang puot ang lungkot ang nadadama mo, it's just not enough to complain and beat our breasts over the current situation of our country. Na kesyo ang mahal ng mga bilihin, puro naman pangungurakot, na wala naman pagbabago... Nandun na 'ko. Pero wala kang karapatang magreklamo kung wala ka namang naitutulong and besides wala namang nakakarinig sa mga hinaing mo.

Isa ka ba sa mga nagtatapon ng basura sa kalye? Nasa tamang gulang pero hindi rehistradong bumoto sa kadahilanang ikaw lamang ang may alam o baka naman rehistrado ka nga pero tinatamad ka lang bumoto? O di kaya'y hinayaang mong mabili ang boto mo? Sumasagot ka ba sa inggles kahit na kinakausap ka sa wikang Filipino para lang magmukha kang conio? Isang dosena na ba ang anak mo at inaasa mo lang ang lahat sa pamahalaan? Nandidiri ka ba sa mga mahihirap? Dineny mo na ba kahit once na Pilipino ka? Kung oo, pwes you have no right to complain at all dahil hindi mo mahal ng sapat ang bayan mo.

joining hands to campaign

But it's never too late, you can still change. Hindi na tayo pwede umasa pa sa iba. Dapat mismo sa sarili natin, even in our own little ways, tumulong tayo. Baon na baon na sa lupa ang Pilipinas at wag na natin ibaon pa.

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To read the essay, click here. Follow thru the thread and participate as well in the discussions to find out ways how you can help. Image is from Milleniumcampaign.

I Just Got Nooooominated!!!

2007-07-07T12:01:00.000-07:00

I Just Got Nooooominated!!!

Your eyes aren't fooling you.

Yes, I've been nominated to CG's Filipino Blog of the Week!!! It's not a big time webby but I feel so honored na ma nominate. Anooo ba? Just when I posted yesterday that I'm to study seriously na for the NCLEX. But oh well karirin na natin to ule! Let me just say kung bakit ako dapat manalo. (Campaigning ba ito?)

Here's the criteria:

Pt 1. Design (The look of the blog, from header to divider to footer. Harmony among elements, including color blending) - 10 points

Pink is the new black. And harmony? Oh come on napaka ayos ng blog ko. My header rocks! There's blending. *wink wink What more can you ask for? haha...

Pt 2. Reading Enjoyment (What makes visitors to post comments and come back to check for new posts.) - 10 points

I'm 21. St. Paul Manila Nursing grad na bum na nasa Amerika na nanunuod ng Wowowee araw araw habang palipat lipat sa Eat Bulaga. It's my first time here in the states kaya marami akong 1st time experiences as well. Let me take you with me mula sa kamangyangan ko mag operate ng vacuum, anxiety attacks ko over the dreaded NCLEX hanggang sa inculturation ko with the so-called American dream.

Pt 3. Navigational Comfort (Easy to navigate. Elements are easily found. How fast does the page load?) - 10 points

My page is very clean. Everything you need nasa sidebar. It loads very fast kasi wala masyadong kalat.

Pt 4. Information-filled and overall impact (sports blog? entertainment blog? personal blog? Just get your message across.) - 10 points

It's a personal. And eto na nga I'm getting my message across. So pleeeeeaaase vote for me! Pwedeng advanced Xmas gift na to. haha.

FRIENDS, LOVERS, COUNTRYMEN...VOTE FOR ME (ROMANCINGVENUS)!

follow thru CG's page to vote and find out more. Vote for RomancingVenus on the poll provided @ the sidebar. Much appreciated.

Seryosohan na Talaga

2007-07-07T00:30:00.000-07:00

Seryosohan na Talaga

[Hearing: Brighter than Sunshine. *Aqualung]
[Whatup: anong petsa na??? Tatamad tamad pa din ako! Magsumikap na!]

Nakausap ko si Lea and nanghingi na din ako ng onting motivation. I'm one month behind mula sa planned ko na time table sa pagaaral. Friends, hindi na muna ako makakapag onlyn as much as I'd like. Siguro mga 3x tops per week muna ako ngayon. I really hafta study na ng seryoso. I hafta make good sa NCLEX. Please pray for me. Pretty please.

Into the Bandwagon!

2007-07-05T17:48:00.000-07:00

Into the Bandwagon!

[Hearing: Wind It Up. *Gwen Stefani]
[Whatup: sineryoso ang blogging!]

View my Technorati Profile. Went Technorati and so much more! Ulk Wala naman laman yan. Anyway, if you browse through my sidebar you'd notice I added a lot of widgets and buttons. Naka add ako jan lahat. Like I said tinodo ko na ang ka adikan ko. So I guess it's not 74% anymore. haha! I just wanna spread the word!!! Blogging is so great... Kakalagay ko lang din ng stat counter and within 12 hours about 60+ people already visited my blog. Ang saya saya!!!

ALAG

2007-07-05T17:45:00.000-07:00

onga naman. confusing eh?

4th of July

2007-07-04T23:38:00.000-07:00

4th of July

[Hearing: Here we Are. *Gloria Estefan]
[Whatup: Independence Day todaaaaay!]

I'm 21 and at this age and point in life who would've thought that I'd be in the land of the free and the home of the brave? I never did. People here seem to be more festive than Filipinos during our own independence day. Naglalagay sila ng mga flags outside their houses. They have fireworks (though it's generally illegal). They gather and celebrate. As for me, I still don't get the perks of being an American. I am a Filipino in America the only thing that basically differs between me (an immigrant) and a citizen is primarily the right of suffrage, which I don't enjoy but who cares?! I can count with my fingers kung sino lang ang kilala kong American politician which of course includes, Bush and Arnold. Yes the terminator. As compared to who I know in the Philippines which I can assure you is too many to count and too unhealthy to think about.

Anyway, I was in San Francisco yesterday. It was fun. Went around Fisherman's Wharf, Chinatown, Crookedest st. (Lombard) and the Palace of Fine Arts. Touring came a little too late don't you think? But still it's all too welcome. Then went to San Mateo, got lost and came home at 12mn. Knockout ako paguwi and still exhausted pag gising ko that I wasn't able to come (as promised) with ate to Oakland with her boyfriend to watch a baseball game. Tumawag pa sya after to say na I should come sa Water something... haha di ko na gets yung name, since it's the 4th of July. I declined. Ayos lang nagdedepress-depressan naman kasi ako ngayon...

Oh yeah and unlike sa Pinas na Celsius ang gamit, here they use Fahrenheit. I didn't know about that until nung dumating ako dito and no, hindi laging malamig sa states like what I also thought. Yesterday was 99° and today's 101°. Putik ang init. You would say na mas mainit sa Pinas right? No, 89° lang jan.

P.S. my ate just got home at may dala siyang American flag. I promised na next time sasama na talaga ako sa panunod ng baseball just so I'm in the know. Kapag may boyfriend nga naman... Promise next time hindi na ko magddrama sa lungkot.

Bloggersita Adiktus Maximus

2007-07-04T23:22:00.000-07:00

Bloggersita Adiktus Maximus

74%

Mingle² - Online Dating

If You Forget Me

2007-06-30T23:59:00.000-07:00

If You Forget Me

I want you to know

one thing.

You know how this is:

if I look

at the crystal moon, at the red branch

of the slow autumn at my window,

if I touch

near the fire

the impalpable ash

or the wrinkled body of the log,

everything carries me to you,

as if everything that exists,

aromas, light, metals,

were little boats

that sail

toward those isles of yours that wait for me.

Well, now,

if little by little you stop loving me

I shall stop loving you little by little.

If suddenly

you forget me

do not look for me,

for I shall already have forgotten you.

If you think it long and mad,

the wind of banners

that passes through my life,

and you decide

to leave me at the shore

of the heart where I have roots,

remember

that on that day,

at that hour,

I shall lift my arms

and my roots will set off

to seek another land.

But

if each day,

each hour,

you feel that you are destined for me

with implacable sweetness,

if each day a flower

climbs up to your lips to seek me,

ah my love, ah my own,

in me all that fire is repeated,

in me nothing is extinguished or forgotten,

my love feeds on your love, beloved,

and as long as you live it will be in your arms

without leaving mine.

This is a poem by the first man I fell in love with. Hailed "the greatest poet of the 20th century in any language," and a Nobel prize for literature awardee, the Chilean poet, Pablo Neruda. I always loved him and his works since nakilala ko siya nung highschool pa ko.

Once again despite the deepest sorrows that dwell in the depths of my heart, he has managed to touch me just like he always had and his words resound as if they were mine...

Mana Mana

2007-06-25T23:14:00.000-07:00

Mana Mana

[Hearing: Far Away. *Kevyn Lettau. <3>

My mom called a while ago. She said she already sent my transcript para sa NCLEX application ko. Eto maganda jan eh, here's what she said, "Nakuha ko na transcript mo. Baka thursday at the most nanjan na yan. Ang tataas ng grades mo ha parang grado ko nung college ako! Pero I'm sure mas mataas yun kung wala kang boyfriend. "

Anooo ba inay? hahaha natawa talaga ako. I'm sure she didn't mean that in a bad way. Niloloko lang ako nun saka bati nanaman kami kaya she won't talk sarcastically to me. Sabi ko nalang, "Ha? Hindi noh! Anong kinalaman ng boyfriend pati? Saka ano ka? Puro pula kaya class card mo! Nakita ko kaya yun dati." Natawa na lang siya. Mana daw ako sa katalinuhan nya kahit sinasabi din ni daddy na sa kanya daw kami mana.

Natawa talaga ako kay mommy. Ang tagal nga namin nagusap. Namiss ko naman ang mom ko bigla. Magreview na daw ako para makapagpadala na ko ng pera sa kanya at para mabili ko na daw lahat ng gusto ko. haha si mommy talaga...

Procrastinating

2007-06-25T22:31:00.000-07:00

Procrastinating

[Hearing: Take This Love. *Sergio Mendes. I uber Loooove this song!]
[Whatup: I can't seem to drag myself to go and study.]

Yeah. So here I am typing away. Procrastinating yet again.

Aha! Nagcomment sa friendster ko yung best friend ko ng Grade 6! Anooooo ba?! Nabubuhay talaga mga sacre elem days! Una si Evert, c Ging, si Gretch and now si Tupe naman! Funny talaga! I'm really happy pero sad din at the same time cause I want to see them! *sigh pero matatagalan pa. Ewan ko ba sa taong yun (Tupe), nasa UPmanila lang naman all through out college, katapat lang namin sila, nag duty din naman ako sa PGH pero never talaga kami nagkita. But I'm happy all the same. ^_^

Nanuod akong Ysabella kanina. 1st EP. Natawa ako kay Rossana habang pinagsasabihan nya yung anak nya, "Anak, mangangarap ka na lang din dapat pangarapin mo nang maging CHEP!" Chep as in Chep talaga. Like how you read it. Natawa naman kami ni ate kasi serious sila sa scene na yun. haha. Pero funny talaga sya if you only got to watch it yourself matatawa ka din. Oo ang babaw ko nanaman.

What's up?

2007-06-24T12:35:00.000-07:00

What's up?

[Hearing: Is this Love. *by Pareng Bob Marley]
[Whatup: updates]

Narinig ko sa wakas ang boses ng babaeng famous for the line na "What's up?" and "Small World." haha! yup wala ng iba kundi si Nicole Maramo. Sorta just finished talking with her sa fone. La lang. Natuwa lang ako. Para kaming loka lokang nagsisigawan sa telepono. Twas nakakaaliw. Gagawin daw nya akong ninang. Yey! haha. Promise talaga pag may work na ko at may car na ko pupuntahan talaga kita sa Bakersfield. Patirahin mo ko sa house nyo. haha!

2007-06-22T12:14:00.000-07:00

Gusto ko ng...

[Hearing: Perhaps Love. *Full House MV @youtube]
[Whatup: whilst watching eat bulaga. haha]

Gusto ko manuod ng koreanovelas. Baduy nitong TFC. Ngayon pa lang pinapalabas ang Lovers in Paris. Anyway, kinikilig pa din naman ako kay Martin. Ang cute nya! Sarap nyang mahalin! haha... Gusto ko din manuod ng Full House ule! Badtrip kasi I wasn't able to bring all my cd's coz I had to be cautious with the security check sa airport. Mahirap ng madeport. Gusto ko din manuod ng My Sassy Girl ule saka ng My Little Bride saka ng My Boyfriend is B+. I looooove Koreanovelas. Wala akong paki kung baduy sa iba basta ako gusto ko yun! Biruin mo naman ngttyaga pa ko sa Arirang dati nung hindi pa uso koreanovela sa Pinas. hahaha! Kdrama rocks. But so does Maria Flordeluna! hahaha uie patapos na! Dapat talaga hinayaan na lang nila Flor na mamatay tong si Mamita. But you know all's well ends well pa din.

Buti pa sa Pinas may DVD sa kalye!

2007-06-21T15:47:00.000-07:00

Friendster top 10 commandments

Which I all agree to. Good thing m not guilty of any. haha.

ONE
Stop posting multiple bulletins!!!

People would read your bulletin if they
really want to!

Or even stop saying, "READ ME", like I
said, people would read it if they
want to.

TWO:
To the people who have like 1,000
friends,

are you serious?

You dont know half the people!

You're stupid.

Go play in traffic.

THREE:
Don't ever post pictures and say

"OMG, I'm so ugly"

"OMG, I'm so fat"

because if you were,

you wouldn't post them.

And if u do ur a f*cking idiot.

FOUR:
Nobody cares about threats over the
internet.

Don't try to act hardcore with the
keyboard.

Fighting online is like racing in the
special olympics;

even if you win, you're still retarded.

FIVE:
Quit crying because you're not on
someones featured friends.

Who cares?

IT'S THEIR PROFILE!!!

NOT YOURS !!!

SIX:
Who really cares if I don't accept you
as a friend?

MOVE ON!!!

Don't send me another request or
message
asking

"What's up with you not adding me?"

I don't want you as a friend,

that's what's up dumbass!!!

SEVEN:
6th graders who have Friendster

and look like sluts, and act like
whores

go somewhere else because nobody

wants you here.

EIGHT:
If you have decided to read this,

you are a true Friendster Friend.

Real friends read their bulletins.

NINE:
I say you go and pass this on

and maybe it will finally get through
people's brains.

TEN:
And if you open a bulletin and it says
something like

" Repost this in 100 seconds or a ghost
will rape your dog

tonight, or "some dead skinless girl is
gonna rape your mom "

QUIT BEING A DUMB A$S!!

2007-06-21T14:19:00.000-07:00

Ooooh CooLness!

[Hearing: Don't Let it Go To Your Head - *Black Harmony. Bagay. Pwedeeee!]
[Whatup: Nothing much Coco Crunch]

Naaliw talaga ako sa multiply. Ewan ko ba naman sa tagal tagal na may ngiinvite sakin na magjoin eh nung kay Kc lang ako napasali. Uie anlakas sakin ni Kc. haha! (Love u Kc, imissu at ang mga hiritan sa duty with Bosang, Riz n everyone else). You can even cross-post your blogs and incorporate pics! Like what I did with my flickr pics. Isn't the coolest thing? Wooooh! Naaliw talaga ako. Ang hehenyo ng gumawa nito ha in fairness. No wonder it's in the top 5 most visted sites sa buong world!

And you think friendster's top 1 right? Nope, it's just top 21. Top 1 sya sa Pinas. But here people hardly use friendster they go for MySpace.

Which is my next project. Hmmm, makagawa nga ng myspace account...

Friends add nyo ko sa Multiply! Just click the link below...yung may stars.

Oh yeah if u see the banner of my multiply account, yung tao dun, wala syang alipunga. Green lang sya and with henna. It's a hindu body art thing. Mas lalo nang wala syang gangrene.

2007-06-20T18:16:00.000-07:00

Bagong Kalokohan

Wala namang laman! Coming soon pag may gg cam na ko!!! Just fiddling out of chronic boredom, in the mood to tweak things.

Looove stars!

2007-06-20T14:25:00.000-07:00

Like It?

[Hearing: Look What You've Done. *Jet.]
[Whatup: Works done!]

Yey! Just updated my blog and friendster template. I made the latter by myself. Title's Romancing Venus Saga. Pretty noh? I think it's good for a first time and it's so me nanaman like my blog. ^_^ Pwede kayo magrequest na gawan ko kayo, I'll try my best...

Oh yeah I had to increase the number of posts per page of my blog cause if you notice the darn template has no archives.

2007-06-20T00:25:00.000-07:00

Yun Na!

[Hearing: Humanap Ka ng Panget. *Andrew E.]
[Whatup: Laughing my head off. Literally. Oh yeah, m also about to update my blog template and maybe change the url.]

Yun yun eh!

Wee hours in the morning na and I was about to doze off. But before that I decided to check a err...friend's profile at...Eat Bulaga! Bagong pic! Wow sabaw! Talagang nabulaga ako and I even managed to say "Bakla ba yun?" aloud though I was by myself. Baknush! I dedicate the song Cherry Lips by Garbage to you!!! Frankly, it fits you well. Androgyny! Pero girl ang name nya eh. Ba't ganun noh? I'm not being sarcastic here pero pasalamat na lang talaga ako kay God dahil hindi ako mukhang lalake/bakla. Hindi ako mapamintas pati dahil kung kilala nyo yung sinsabi ko, naku, gulpi di gulat sa ligo ng lait ang aabutin nun. Lalo na kung si mama Joy kaharap ko. haha . Clue: current girl (daw) to ng someone na akala nina Coel at Che eh guard at na wow mali lang nung biglang nagsalita at nagenglish! Blind item ito! hahaha! Kung close tayo malamang alam mo na kung sino. Ops! Wag ng hulaan pa! Iwas gulo drama natin. Di ko alam kung dapat ako mainsulto eh. Basta, mapapaehersisyo ako lalo nito sa ligalig for sure!

Wahaha! Tawa na lang ako. Print ko kaya, panakot sa daga. I was grossed out but still, tops! It definitely made my day. Now I'm ready to sleep. Laughing.

2007-06-19T12:57:00.000-07:00

JPR Day

[Hearing: Broken Man. *Boys Like Girls]
[Whatup: Steady. Gloomy weather today that's why I got up late.]

Before I left for that states I made a vow with myself na I would never change for the worse. That I would stay the same. Na hindi lalaki ang ulo ko, na hindi ako magiging tulad ng iba who act as if they're larger than life. That I would still abhor social climbers to the core. That I would still loathe politicians the most and would remain to love the things that I love before I left for the states like Rob Place Ermita, 168/Divi Mall/Tutubs, OPM, Tong-its, Chicken balls, fiestas, kalesas, champorado with tuyo, and milo. That I would allow change only if it's for the better whilst allowing my roots to remain intact. That I would never forget kung saan ako nanggaling at hindi ako matuturingang malansang isda. That I would be proud of my achievements (not of others) but be down-to-earth as much as I can.

That I would be ME no matter what and remain to be Filipino sans colonial mentality and sans idolism for the foreign.

Happy Birthday to the greatest hero in the history of our nation, José Protacio Rizal Mercado y Alonso Realonda. This one's for you.

2007-06-04T13:49:00.000-07:00

Snooper Duper

Hearing: Cherry Lips (Garbage)... Go baby go go!!!~ haha
Where@: 100 Hawthorn Dr. pa din
Whatup: reading thru other people's blogs

I read thru one person's blog. Kilala ko sya sa kwento, pero di nya ko kilala. Hindi ko sya crush, babae sya. Anyway, nabasa ko na break na nga sila ng guy nya and she was pouring it all out sa blog nya, how she's in so much pain and shit. To think that she's broadcasting her blog url sa friendster nya na I'm sure eh alam ng guy nya at I'm sure binabasa din ng guy nya. Tas magdadrama sya dun ng todo. I just don't get it. Why in god's name would you want your ex to know that your life's miserable? Ang pathetic eh. I mean, sige you talk and you tell him you want him back but come one... Do you really hafta be detailed about it in your blog? Mas lalo kang hindi babalikan nun if you act as if it's the end of the world when you separated. Your world doesn't stop there. Certainly he wasn't your world to start of with.

2007-06-03T16:47:00.000-07:00

Hafiverdei

Hearing: Dimelo (Enrique Iglesias), paki nyo ba gusto ko si Enrique kahit na mukha syang bading. Sabi ni ate crush daw nya to dati kasi parang napaka passionate kumanta. True that.
Where@: dining, kakauwi lang...
Whatup: Hafiverdei Kuya!!!

Birthday ni kuya ngayon. 31 na sya. Akalain mo yun? Kailangan na talaga nya mag go forth and multiply as commanded ni Lord. I bought him a shirt kahit na wala na kong pera, just to be thoughtful and sweet. Minsan lang naman magbirthday ang isang tao diba? Saka I'm quite grateful kay kuya for a number of things din pati lalo na't sya ang nag send ng affidavit for me. Soooo, Happy beerday kuya! Eat out daw kami later with his friends and co-workers. Yey!

*Sigh ang hirap ng when you're going out and you want to buy something pero hindi mo magawa kasi wala ka ng pera. I really wanted to buy a pair of Kenneth Cole shoes kanina na parang peachy goldish yung color. Ang pretty kasi and it was on clearance $30 na lang, originally $75 sya. But even if mura na lang sya hindi ko naman mabili. Hafta be smart and frugal at this point. I hafta pay pa sa NCLEX testing fee, $200 din yun, galing pa sa sariling bulsa. Don't fret. Di bale pag RN na ko, woooooh! Shopping spree to the max na! haha...

I started studying na din kagabi. Excellent progress na din kasi I studied for 4 1/2 hours and was able to finish 3 chapters. I'm reading the Comprehensive NCLEX review book by Saunders... hmm, ok naman sya. Hindi naman sya full of gibberish like some books and madali naman syang maarok. Naks. haha...

Ang goal ko talaga is to be able to say to myself na I did everything in my power to study before ng exam para confident talaga at hopefully one take lang.

Kinakabahan talaga ako...

Commercial: Yung Starfleet nasa XXX (malapit kina Dani yun!)!!! hahaha! Phuket massage at Wet Thai Massage ang bida! Instead na hands at feet ang ginagamit sa pagmasahe, boobs at dila. Whooooh! Biruin mo yun! How creative nga naman...

2007-06-02T11:22:00.000-07:00

Nightmares + Kiss and Make Up

Hearing: Oh It's Love (Hellogoodbye)
Where@: same old banana...
Whatup: ugggh sakit likod ko!

Biruin mong kahit sa pagtulog ko nanaginip na ko ng mga libro... I woke up at 5am kanina cause I dreamt that I was asked to read a Pharmacology book. Buti nga nagising ako. Studying... Ick. The NCLEX is haunting me even in slumber.

By the way, we picked up ate Charry last saturday over at SFO airport. Pagdating namin nakasimangot na si ate Charry kanina pa daw sya. Sabi ko kay kuya, "Hala ka!" haha... and hindi sya pinansin during the 1 hour drive... ayun... The good of it though is the apartment is spotless thanks to ate Charry's knack in organizing as well as her pagiging ok-ok. Hindi na rin ako lagi ang taga linis at taga luto! mwahahaha!~

Another thing is bati na kami ni mommy!!! Whooooooh! I'm sooooo happy! Naguusap na uli kami and nagkkwento na uli sya about sa mga admirer nya! haha (si mommy talaga)...Mga senior citizen boylets ng nanay ko nagseselosan ba naman! haha... Sabi nya pati mag-aral na daw ako ng makapagtrabaho na daw!!! Kayod kalabaw baby!

Dinner later at Vacaville with relatives! Will see cute Gabe again. Yey! Makakalabas din akong bahay! Ecstatic.

2007-05-25T21:24:00.000-07:00

Karma Kameleon

Hearing: 3 Libras (Perfect Circle)
Where@: dining ng gabi by the light of the lampshade...
Whatup: ang innniiiiiiit na sa amerikaaaa!!!

After watching The Weakest Link on GSN I got bored so I did my landry. Ang mahal ng laundry dito in fairness. I mean I used to stay in a dorm and rates sa Bituon sa "gilid" (collective term for the Guerrero st. stores eg Tambayan, Garahe, Pearly White...) is like 30php/kilo wash + fold. Tapos dito washer pa lang $1.50 and the dryer's another $1.25. That's almost 125 in pesos!!! Huwaw! Kamahal! Bummer pa talaga kasi you use quarters eh kulang ako ng quarters, alanganamang hayaan ko na lanag na basa yung mga damit ko and hindi ko na idryer. So what I did was I used peso coins kasi they're the same size as quarters. I inserted 6 sa washer and ta-da!!! It worked! Ok na sana eh, but when I inserted quarters and pesos sa slot for the dryer, putris! Kinain ba naman! The coins got stucked in the friggin dryer! Darn it!!! Nakarma!!! hahaha! Kala ko lulusot na!

Lesson learned? Make sure that the dryer won't eat up your coins...

2007-05-23T22:55:00.000-07:00

Reminiscing

Hearing: Sugar, We're Going Down (Fall Out Boy)
Where@: dining pa din
Whatup: kakatapos ko lang magsagot ng survey from Cors

Wala lang. Namiss ko lang college bigla. When I was in HS, I even had a countdown of the days til college. Now it's over. It's so sad and so surreal. I miss my friends. I miss reviewing kahit na it used to suck. *sigh.

2007-05-22T00:05:00.000-07:00

Revelation

Hearing: All Falls Down (Kanye West ft. Syleena)
Where@: same old

Whatup: La lng..just went online...found a new friend from merville na who's staying in San Francisco pala...sweet!

Hmmm, wala lang to. haha! Mali pala info ko na alam all along. I'm not Filipino-Chinese-Spanish-American after all. I have a lolo n lola from Hawaii (my lolo's the brother of my real Lola, the mom of my mom), and they had the family tree traced especially the Simms side of the family only to find out that it's not really American or Native American but Irish. So for the record I'm Filipino-Chinese-Spanish-Irish.

Ano naman paki mo dun diba? Exactly my point. haha!

2007-05-21T03:11:00.000-07:00

Sexyname

Truth hurts. Bow.

2007-05-20T23:19:00.000-07:00

Rock Hard

Hearing: stillness of the night, drama!

Where@: dining pa din ng apt

Whatup: praning na!

Praning na talaga! It just dawned on me na less than a month to go na lang at magtatake na ng local board exams ang mga kabatch ko sa Pinas. Heto pa't nagcomment sa friendster ko ang kabarakada kong si Tine (not that hindi ako natuwa), and according to her nga she's gonna enroll sa Kaplan, which is like the equivalent of Gapuz satin. Ika nga ng Kaplan, "Prepare with Kaplan, Pass the first time."

Aatakihin na ata ako sa puso. In less than a month RN na mga kabatch ko while ako professional bum pa din ang lamang ko lang nasa states na ko. Sosyal na bum. But should I be confident just because of that? Hell no. Putris, eh more than a month na sila ngrereview while ako ni buklat ng libro hindi ko pa nagagawa. How promising naman talaga! Naguiguilty naman talaga ako,I swear, but you know katamaran gets the better of me and I do read books during my free time (which is most of the time) it's just that it doesn't have anything to do with Nursing or the sort. Buti pa si Anabelle Rama sa Sharon nabigyan ko ng pansin eh yung mga libro ko binabahayan na ng gagamba.

And when do I intend to take the NCLEX? So August lang naman. It's as if napaka layo pa when in fact napakaka short na lang ng time para mgreview ako lalo na't I have to review all by myself. Para bang napaka sure ko eh noh? Actually, kabang kaba na nga ko at sumasakit puso ko just thinking of it. It's sooooo friggin near. Ugggh, NCLEX is killing me softly.

But the thing is, I can't live like this forever. Surely, I can't depend on my kuya and my ate to feed me, provide me shelter and buy me a thing or two when we go out. Eventually, I'd have to crawl out of the comforts of my niche and do something productive other than cleaning the house or cooking them dinner. Sooner or later, dreadfully, I'd have to study and bury my nose in my books and subsequently earn a living for myself and pitch in a bit for groceries, rent and stuff. I guess it's better than sleeping in the afternoon due to chronic boredom. But the truth is, ayaw ko pa talaga but deep inside me and right from the start I perfectly knew that the time will come when I hafta go through the pagsusunog ng kilay part just like every other nursing student reviewing for the board exams.

I've stalled enough, procrastinated enough.

It's time.

2007-05-19T23:02:00.000-07:00

Melt

Hearing: Buy You a Drank (T-Pain)

Where@: dining pa din

Whatup: hmm hoping that Dani got my txt

I checked out Dani's profile sa friendster and saw this recently added to his pics.

Awww...Isn't he the sweetest?! Thanks baby! I just melt.

2007-05-14T10:58:00.000-07:00

Biggest Losers

Hearing: Boston by Augustana (cute ng piano tune)

Where@: same old, same old

Whatup: wala naman na late gumising as always! Happy Anniv baby! yiheeeee! Isang taon na tayo!

Kakatapos lang ng eleksyons sa Pilipinas kahapon. Sabi nga nila: "Walang natatalo sa Pilipinas, lahat nadadaya." I'm sure madami nanaman ang magrereklamo kesyo nadaya sila. Tayo lang ang may sangkatutak na kandado sa balot boxes natin yet still napaka talamak pa din ng dayaan. Only in the Philippines ika nga. Nakakastress talaga isipin. Hindi sa wala akong pag-asa sa bayan natin cause well in fact madami akong hope. I'm not also being a bad ass negative thinker. It just blatantly ticks me off. Andami nga namang swapang at walang paki alam. Diyos na ang bahala sakanila...

Anyway, so much for that. Baby, I know you're reading my blog. Happy Anniv! 14 naman uli dito eh. iLoveuSomuch. imissu...

2007-05-10T11:30:00.000-07:00

Think of Julia and Dr. Martin

Hearing: One and Only by Timbaland ft. Fall Out Boy... whoooh I'm loving FOB!!!

Where@: house pa din

Whatup: it's cold for a normal spring day!

Early morning. As I was browsing through Dr. Martin's blog, I read through his posts for April 2007 as well as the comments for each and I stumbled upon a post about Julia Campbell, the US peace corps volunteer who was brutally murdered in Banaue last month.

I was already here in the states when I found out about that incident through GMA Pinoy TV to which we are tuned in everyday. Hiyang hiya kami ng mga kapatid ko. How can someone so compassionate be mercilessly slaughtered in the hands of the people she is trying to help? Tayo na ngang tinutulungan tayo pang inggrato?! I don't even know kung yung statement ng so-called killer ni Julia is telling the truth. Parang binayaran eh para maclose na yung case, para lang masabi na ginawa ng pulisya lahat ng magagawa nila. Pathetic if you come to think of it. And if my speculation is true, most talaga ng tao sa Pilipinas nababayaran na sa sobrang pagkalugmok ng bansa natin sa hirap. Malungkot pero yan ang totoo. It is the bitter reality that we have to face.

I applaud GMA kasi they care enough to show ads about political awareness like "Sa Isa Kong Boto." Ang obnoxious sa iba but I can't help but be moved everytime na napapanuod ko yun lalo na yung about sa doctor-for-the-barrio na napilitan mag nursing. Sobrang striking nun para sakin at sobrang sakit na ipagpalit mo at pagmamahal mo sa bayan mo para lamang maiahon ang pamilya mo. Parang sa gf-bf relationship yan eh, nagmahal ka pero hindi ka minahal. Pero hindi pa naman huli ang lahat meron pa din namang pag-asa. It's actually not our country's fault but of the leaders na nakaupo sa office nila't nagpapakasasa't binabawi lahat ng ginastos nila sa pangangampanya sa pamamagitan ng kaban ng bayan. Ang mga walanghiya nga naman. Bakit ba sila nagkakandarapa, gumagastos ng milyon milyon over a job na ang kita lamang ay Php35,000 kada buwan????!! Eh hindi naman nila mababawi ginastos nila kahit pa 10 taon sila nakaupo sa pwesto nila. Garapalang nagnanakaw ang mga walanghiyang trapo.

But I haven't given up believing. It is not too late and I haven't lost hope. There are still people out there who are willing to give up their personal comforts ng walang hinihinging kapalit. Thank you Julia and Dr. Martin. Sana marami pang tao ang tumulad sa inyo.

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For more info visit Dr. Martin Bautista's blog as well as Julia Campbell's blog. Please also checkout PBC's documentary, Searching for Asian America, where Dr. Martin was featured.

2007-05-08T17:14:00.000-07:00

Cont...

I just wanted to add. Idol ko si Dr. Martin for his vision and nationalism. Pag naka ipon din ako hindi ko papabayaan ang Pilipinas. I would help alleviate its current situation as it is. Sino pa bang aasahan kundi tayo mismo, tayong kabataan lalo. I sound so idealistic but yan ang totoo. Aasahan pa ba nating ang mga pulitiko? Ang tagal tagal na nilang naka upo sa office nila. Ok pa sana if our country has saved its former glory but I am deeply saddened because it has even worsened. Dr. Martin was right to say that none of us has any right to whine and complain if we do not take part in making a difference. I might be in the states right now but I have campaigned in my own way for Dr. Martin's behalf: sa ym, sa irc, sa friends ko, and here sa blog ko. This is my way of making a difference, by supporting a good cause for the over all reform a so called kanser-strickened nation.

I am so proud of Dr. Martin. I am moved by his magnanimous courage and bravery to overcome the impossible. I am honoured to be his fellow Filipino.

Let us all be a change agent. Let us act now. It is never too late.

2007-05-08T15:04:00.001-07:00

Hopes for Dr. Martin

Hearing: Chippy ska asawa nya n ngttweet tweet..haha!

Where@: dining...

Whatup: procrastinating again before cleaning the ref...

Please vote for Dr. Martin Bautista under the kapatiran party as senator. He's goddamn worth that one vote. Nuf said.

Just to give a brief info...He is a UP College of Medicine graduate (1989) and is a US-trained gastroenterologist. Recently, he came back home from the US with his wife, a pulmonologist and their 4 daughters. He states in newspaper reports that he would rather spend his time now doing something good for our country, the Philippines.

For more info visit Dr. Emer's blog which contains an interview or better yet check out Dr. Martin's blog itself.

If you still hope for a better future then I implore you to please vote for him.

Finally, here's one statement from Dr. Martin Bautista.

"But do we have a choice? There comes a point in our lives when living a good and secure and prosperous existence becomes immoral when you cast a blind eye to the terrible suffering all around us. If you truly believe in your heart that you can offer whatever blessings and talents that have been given to you but decide to back-off because of the tremendous sacrifice in loss of privacy, income, security and family time then you would not only have failed yourself but your country as well."

2007-05-05T21:10:00.000-07:00

Soooo Far, Soooo Good

Hearing: Give it to Me by Timbaland ft. Nelly Furtado n Justin Timbelake on MTVtres...haha!

Where@: akalain mong nasa sala ako sa apt namin sa u.s. of a. whooooh! california baby represent! damn! haha...

Whatup: biruin mong im actually 38 days na dito sa states! that's more than a month already!

Now that I'm in the states, I feel like I'm more entitled to post stuff in Tagalog. It's true that once you're in the states mas nagiging nationalistic ka and right now mas naiinis ako sa mga walangyang mga trapong pulitiko na sumisira sa Pilipinas dahil sa pangungurakot. However, now is not the time to discuss that because the main focus of this post is me and how I have been these past 38 days.

I'm good. I left the Philippines via China Airlines and arrived here sa SFO airport ng March 28 ng gabi. Sa NAIA nung umpisa ok eh sobrang accomodating ng mga tao. Nung pagpasok ko sa airport I sooooo did not know wht to do talaga saka helllllloooo naman 1st time ko kaya yun na makita ung loob ng airport. I mean sa Pilipinas kasi hindi naman pwede pumasok yung relatives kapag arrival or departure. So anyway, madaling madali talaga ako umalis ng bahay, dapat nun aalis ako ng 2pm since my flight was around 5pm pero nakaalis na ata ako ng 2:30pm dahil syempre had a lot of last minute stuff that I had to do. Yung mga tao sa airport, ay sus! nasobrahan sa pagiging warm... tipong tinatanong ko, "Sir, san po to lalagay?" ang sagot ng lolo mo, "Dito, tapos yung number mo sakanya..." haha! Not once lang nagyari yan ha, siguro mga about thrice within the 30 minutes timespan na nandun ako sa airport. Modesty aside, proven talaga na beauty has its benefits. Ang bilis magreact sa needs ko eh may nag parang mini tour pa sakin at hinatid pa ko sa booth ng mga immigrants plus I was given the most spacious seat sa plane in both my flights... haha! nakaktuwa din kasi hindi ako nahirapan as much as I expected... I had so much time left na tumunganga ako for like more than an hour waiting for my gate to open, so what I did was I texted Lea n everybody else para mag goodbye saka syempre si Dani. Mukha nga kong tanga nun kasi I was sitting in a cafe alone tapos tears were trickling down my cheeks. Damn! Parang pelikula! But you hafta give credit to me, soooobrang sad ako nun, leaving home, leaving my friends, leaving Dani, leaving the Philippines 10 days right after my graduation!!! It broke my heart that I just had to cry for the hell of it. Kahit pa may lalake dun sa next table sakin na tingin ng tingin sakin habang nage-emote ako, I just didn't care.

Fact: Hindi ko maintindihan ang mga lintik na chekwang mga flight attendant!!! Take note, english salita nila. Iba talaga accent nila and hirap na hirap talaga akong intindihin sila! Mental reminder: will not take another China Airlines flight as much as possible. Anyway, while on my so-called journey to the states, may nakilala akong lalake na soooobrang bait sakin at tinulungan ako around and kept me company for 4 hrs while waiting for my connecting flight in Taiwan to board. Sobrang thankful talaga ako sakanya kasi hanggang sa San Francisco in the airport he helped me get my stuff tas nung sinundo na ko ni ate, tinulungan nya pa rin akong ilagay yung mga gamit ko sa car. At syempre binigay nya din number ng anak nya para itxt ko daw. haha! Laughtrip... pero according to ate ganun lang daw talaga mga Pinoy dito mahilig daw talaga mag-reto...haha! Wala pa nga ko sa amerika mismo, first hand ko kaagad na experience ang pagiging hospitable ng mga Pilipino. Iba talaga...haha! Naging english translator extraordinaire din pala ako dun sa isang senior citizen saka isang parang gurl na Vietnamese do the point na they kindly asked if I could be seated beside them. Ok lang naman sakin so I agreed. Tulong na din yun and hindi ako makatanggi sa matatanda. I have a soft spot for them...

So ayun...dito naman sa bahay, mejo nakapag adapt na din ako although I did have a hard time sa umpisa especially sa oras n with sleeping. Nung mga 1st 2 weeks para akong kwago, baliktad tulog pero now naman ok na. Yung sa housework naman, steady lang kasi hindi naman mabigat talaga saka yung overall experience ko dito sa states parang sa dorm talaga the only difference is my dormmates are my kuya n ate. Fun din naman kasi mas sanay kame sa isa't isa n mas natututo ako with stuff especially with cooking. Right now, na overcome ko na din yung most of the bulk ng lungkot ko. I mean, I'm still sad deep inside pero hindi na sya tulad nung umpisa. Nung umpisa kasi lagi akong tintanong nila ate kung nalulungkot nga daw ako n dat yung stay nga namin sa states I just had to think of it as a phase, na para bang temporary lang kasi after namin magipon uuwi din naman kami. I just had to think of it na tipong nagaaral ka na when u work, u hafta go to schl everyday but instead of getting your allowance, u get to earn ur salary, which is way bigger kaya makakapagshopping ka. Ang maganda pa nyan eh ang mall sa Solano County ay nasa place namin here in Fairfield and may Outlet pa sa Vacaville! Whoooooh! I've been there n ang gaganda ng shops saka ang dami talagang mabibili...as in! haha...actually hindi pa ko talaga nakakapag sight seeing kasi may work sina kuya so pag weekend lang sila talaga usually free. My usual regimen is that we go to Church on Sundays then sa mall or kung san man. I've been to Mt. Carmel, Catholic Church dito saka St. Vincent sa Vallejo n also another Christian Church sa Vallejo. I basically just tag along kung san pupunta si ate. haha. ooooh! I've also been to Seafood City in Vallejo para syang grocery ng mga Pinoy. Dami ngang Pilipino dito kaya ok din. Vallejo kasi, which is around 20-30 mins from our place, is the 3rd place in the states na most populated with asians (wiki) kaya un... I've been to Daly City na din para sa christening of Jessica, my niece... anlamig dun! todo! hindi kaya ng powers ko...haha!!! dito na lang akong Fairfield...haha!

Ok din naman dito. I don't live in a city kaya sobrang peaceful saka sa states sobrang organized ng mga bagay bagay. Not unlike satin, hindi mo na kailangan pang problemahin ung mga trivial stuff. Like sa bank, pag nagbayad ka ng bills mo sobrang bilis na tipong bumili ka lang chippy sa tindahan. Ganun lang... It's cool here but it would be so much better talaga kng nandito sina Lea, Noh n all of my close friends saka syempre c Dani. But tulad ng lagi kong sinasabi, It'll come, I'm in no hurry...

As of now my plans are to first study the friggin DMV manual and pass the driving test n Lord sana please one take lang ako! Here kasi if you wanna go to certain places necessary na may car ka n syempre marunong kang magdrive kasi anlalaki ng distances ng mga lugar dito in between. Kaya payo lang talaga dapat talaga marunong magdrive bago pumuntang states!!! Good thing natuto ako before ako umalis...shift stick pa!!! haha sb ng mom ko para daw chicken lang sakin ang automatic. haha...sana nga! n syempre the dreaded NCLEX!!! baka sa august ako mgtake...ate charry's arriving na nga pala on the 26th, 4 na kame! haha andami na namin sa apartment.

So really so far so good. I'm cool though I'm missing a great deal back in the Philippines. Thank God for that! ^_^

2007-03-27T19:13:00.000-07:00

Holding On

Hearing: Electric fan whirring, same old.
Where@: sala habang kasalukuyang pinapapak ng lamok
Whatup: Sad. Lonely. Down. Missing u...a letter I made for my baby last 01.27.07, was suppossed to give it to him pero I just decided to post it here. Just want the world to know how much his love means to me... Thanks so much baby for everything. Your love keeps me going...

~*~*~*

Dearest Baby,

ang sarap mong panuorin matulog...para ka talagang baby, amoy baby pa!

lam mo baby, wala talagang ibubuga sa'yo si saudi boy (binyag ni dhen! naks!). cute ka na, sooooobrang bait na boyfriend/anak/tropa/kapatid pa. eh sya? mukha syang gremlin, saksakan pa ng hambog. hahaha. higit sa lahat, inggit na inggit sa'yo un kasi yung pinaka gusto nya nasa'yo, at ako un. (kapal ko noh?)

baby, soooobrang saya ko sa'yo. hindi ka tulad ng iba jan na puro sarili lang yung iniisip. u always put my happiness first above anything else. lagi mo kong inaalagaan, inaasikaso at iniintindi n i can't help but feel so loved and so well taken care of. napaka swerte ko talaga sa'yo lagi kong sinsabi sa'yo yan n dats exactly how i feel. hindi na ko makakahanap pa ng tulad mo. kaya nga kahit na minsan badtrip ako, pag naiisip kta mas gumagaan ung pakiramdam ko cause i know that there's someone na lagi akong kakampihan n hu'd always be there for me no matter what n i just tell myself that things can't be that bad kasi nanjan ka naman. lagi ko nga iniicp na napaka bait talaga ni Lord kasi He gave us the chance to meet n be together. ^_^

kaya nga i value every single minute that we spend together n if only i could capture every detail para i could play it in my mind over n over again, gagawin ko cause that's how much i cherish my time with u. baby, mahal na mahal na mahal kita kaya nga sobra sobra na lang ang lungkot ko dahil malapit na kong umalis. It’s so hard to fight a battle knowing that the person that you’re fighting that battle for is miles away from u. kung malungkot ka, hnd kta mayayakap. Kung may sakit ka, hnd kita mapupuntahan at maalagaan… kaya lagi mong iingatan sarili mo ha baby? kung choice ko lang sya, ayoko pa talaga umalis, ayaw pa kitang iwan pero kailangan eh. I don’t think that I’ll ever be ready but the best I can do is try to be ok. Thank you kasi broad minded ka n naiintindihan mo yung situation. alam kong ayaw mo kong umalis at ayaw mo kong nakikitang umiiyak pero hindi ko mapigilan, kung iicipin mo kasi less than 3 months na lang aalis na ko, it's really so heart breaking n sad. kaya nga pag may ginagawa tayo together, at the back of my mind lagi kong iniicip kung kelan ntin uli mggawa un... m22log magkasama, maguusap sa fone ng madaling araw, maglalakad sa daan habang umuulan, kakain sa labas, manunuod ng movie, magsisimbang magkasama... kelan kaya natin uli magagawa ung mga yan? Would it be next year? The year after? Ang hirap nya talaga kasi napaka uncertain ng future…but all I know is titiisin ko lahat ng hirap, lahat ng lungkot kasi para satin naman lahat ng ggwin ko.

pag nandun na ko palakasin natin loob ng isa't isa ha n wag tayong magbabago. i'd bear the loneliness kasi ganun kta kamahal. ako pa dati ung nagsasabi sa'yo na wag kang malungkot pag umalis na ko but here i am, nandito pa nga ko pero iyak na ko ng iyak.

basta baby, mahal na mahal kita, lagi mo yang tatandaan n always be strong, just take my hand n never let go dahil darating din ang araw na hindi na natin kelangan pang malungkot at hindi na natin kelangan pang maghiwalay. Always pray n hear mass every Sundays. lagi mong pagdadasal na palakasin ni Lord ang loob natin. iLoveuSoooo000oomuch dani ko… iLoveu heart n soul n wd all of me…

With love always,
Coryganda

2007-03-10T09:20:00.000-08:00

Bliss

Hearing: We Belong Together courtesy of kuya Jun's collection...haha!
Where@: sikretong malupet. dito lang sa tabi tabi... ^_^
Whatup: so happily in love!

iLoveu baby! n iLove watching u sleep... sorry kasi I dropped my ring sa toilet bowl n u had to fish it wd ur bare hand... twas sweet though n cute mo talaga. Wala man lang isang complaint akong narinig. Mahal na mahal mo talaga ako. It's complete bliss to love n be loved by you... I'm sooooOO0o happy! ^_^

2007-02-11T09:23:00.000-08:00

Escape

Hearing: Maskman Theme (tagalog version) c/o Dani's Friendster account.
Where@: Livingroom, seated sa couch facing the kitchen door.
Whatup: takas lang maginternet before I proceed to doing all my requirements...

The worst things: Having to do 8 workshits...este...worksheets. Leaving for Nueva Ecija again tomorrow. Being crammed in a van for 6 hours with a paramaniac for a seatmate. Stopping over (Pitstop) so your groupmates can indulge in their caffeinne addiction and then later complain that their bladder's about to burst all the while forgetting that coffee is a diuretic (take note: only Starbucks will do for them). Being part of 4 pending case presentations. Having a Grand Case Presentation on your birthday (last year's was celebrated at the National Center for Mental Health whilst on duty. Yup, the one in Mandaluyong). Turning 21. the aftermath of our recent retreat. The horror of being scolded by the very kindly priest after confessing your sins. Missing a mass after you've just confessed. Seeing only 3 pesos in your wallet. Being outdated with what's happening at school. Suffering from backaches. The pressure! Not being able to attend review classes esp. the ones for summer. Zits on your face because of the water in Nueva Ecija. Being always wary since C2's (NPA's) roam freely around the staff house. Doing pictographs. Leaving so soon.

The best things: Living, Loving and Learning: Being in love. Being about to earn your BSN degree. Losing 10 lbs!

Lesson: Nothing beats the best things in life...

2007-01-10T10:15:00.000-08:00

All Fired Up

Hearing: Smack That (Akon feat Eminem) << love this song!
Where@: school comp lab...wasting away the 30 hours which is impossible to consume!
Whatup: naglalabas ng sama ng loob

You think you know, but you have no idea. What an understatement! Arrrggh! Inis na inis na inis talaga ako sa taong yun! If only I have a cleaver in hand, I'd axe that person into tiny bits and pieces. How dare he/she say those things about me? After reading that person's blog and seeing the pictures nairita talaga ako!

(No, Gian... I am not talking about you. I presume you think that this is about you, but this time it's not. )

I even hate that person's goddamn school. @$%# panira ng reputation! They even have their $%@*ing uniform patterned after ours...The shame!

Me being an arse: "Excuse me, anong PAASCU level nga uli kayo? Kami kasi level 3 eh, ung pinakamataas. I also heard that people from your school are social climbers and are associated with the white-hanky incident...hmmm, care to elaborate on that?"

Damn. Burn that school.

Ala lang... * sigh I feel much better know after having expressed my feelings in writing. So much for that, time to get back to my requirements and finish this course so I can get tha hell outta the Philippines to find my Caucasian-prospect-to-be-husband...so I can have kids with green eyes! haha! As if!

Ouch. I'm having a headache already just thinking of the worksheets (more like workshits) and case study that I have to do. Better start so I can take my pain meds...

Uh-huh...Right...

2007-01-06T22:12:00.001-08:00

Happy New Year!

Hearing: Temperature by Sean Paul (still ravin for this song!)
Where@: livingroom sa house in front of the TV
Whatup: ala lang... Wedding tomorrow of my sister! Have to wake up early to go to Makati Shang... Duty again on Mon... *sigh

Happy New Year... this is my first ever post for year 2007! Wow time flies so fast and without me noticing, I'm about to graduate already on March. Right now, we're all busy finishing all our requirements such as the Research Forum and Nursing Seminar. Tapos na rin naman thesis namin and I'm so proud dahil one of the thickest sya and it's a Feasibility study...pang masteral level! haha... Onting tiis na lang talaga and I'll be seeing myself marching up on stage sa PICC together with my batchmates. I'm really ecstatic. At long last makakapag umpisa na kong seriously na mag-ipon for my future.

Tomorrow's the wedding na of my Ate Abi. Her wedding's at the church near mall of asia, I'm not sure what it's called basta yun and because she's gonna wed into a Chinese family, recepetion's at Gloria Maris at Greenhills tapos may tea ceremony pa in between sa house nila sa Dasma in Makati. Hmm, I'm happy kasi invited si Dani ni mommy... so we get to spend roughly the whole day tomorrow. Dani's bestfriend will be leaving na din pala tomorrow for Cebu...Goodluck and Godbless Dhen! Ganbate! Pasalubong namin ni Daniel... ^_^

My new year's resolution? I'm not quite sure kasi I'm not really a resolution type of person. Saka I'm afraid na if I make one hindi ko naman mapanindigan...

Ala lang...my brother's watching Volta right now cause it's being shown at ABS...hmm, baby u do look like Justin Cuyugan... sobrang gwapong gwapo pa naman ako dun even before na makilala kita ha...baka isipin mo kasi na binobola kita... haha! Kahit na bakla ung role nya sa isang soap before, magkamukha talaga kayo. Mas darker lang features mo... saka mas maganda lang katawan nun sa'yo but if you would only go to the gym steadfastly, I'm sure magiging magka level kayo...

So...see you na lang baby tomorrow. iLoveuSooomuch... see you!

2006-11-24T20:30:00.000-08:00

That Checkered Thing

Hearing: Season of Smiles by Itchyworms
Where@: comp shop
Whatup: editing and surfing at the same time

why the title u ask? We had a patient at ER-Ward @ East Ave Medical and take note it was a government hospital but he was sporting a navigator and upto this date I still have no idea why the hell he was in that god-forsaken hospital kung may kaya naman pala siya. anyway, while my groupmates and I were talking to him we found out that he had a girlfriend before na Paulinian and that he used to wait at Guerrero, in front of the "ice cream parlor" (sabi nya un... Milku to us) around 3 years ago. "Paulinians in their uniform, you know that checkered thing with long sleeves, cute nga eh," he added. If you could only see our faces, tawang tawa talaga kame. Mas maarte pa sya samin lahat! That happened last week and till now it still makes my tummy hurt when I remember that incident.

Oh yeah, I started my elective (specialization in more common terms) already last Nov. 13! I got Medical-Surgical which is my first choice but I got assigned at ER-ward at EAMC. Not that I don't like it there, I looooove Ms. Dimalibot, my C.I., and all but the cases there are sooooo common and soooooo easy to intervene with. Para bang, wala na bang bago? Damn buti pa sa 5North, though you have to sacrifice and really study a lot atleast the cases are sooooo varied that you get to learn so much. *Sigh.

Plus, pagod na talaga ako! I have classes na nga ng Mon-Sun (literally as in 8 hours a day), I have so many requirements pa like our research (thesis)! I'm emotionally and physically drained already but I know that I can't stop. Not now when I'm about to graduate already by March! Come to think of it, I'm so near yet so far!!! Like being excited and anxious at the same time. Nobody said Nursing was easy and most of all, it's never easy at St. Paul Manila. It's just like what Ms. Dator always tells us, "Ladies, act as if your nurses-to-be from a Level III PAASCU-accredited school!" My point sya.

Last year I celebrated both Valentines (ok lang wala naman akong boyfriend nun...haha!) and my birthday at NCMH, or ospital ng mga baliw, yeas it's the one in Mandaluyong. I wasn't a patient there to make it clear, I was just assigned there for my duty. anyway, Guess what? on my 21st (@#$% tanda ko na!) Grand Case Pres naman! Actually may case presentation ako ng Feb. 19, 21, 23, and 25...wow! thanks for the one day in between leeway ha! Emcee pa ko sa Reseach Forum na inter-college! Assigned din ako to make the friggin class prophecy for our Pinning Ceremony! Di ko alam if dapat pa kong ma-flatter kasi my batchmates appreciate my English and PR skills (iba na talaga pag magaling! haha!) or dapat ko na silang pagsasapakin eh. Define T-O-X-I-C.

2006-08-10T22:09:00.000-07:00

Fcuk u

Hearing: mouse clicking, people typing, printers printing...the sort...
Where@: comp lab
Whatup: inis na inis.

~*> excerpt from http://www.shutteredlife.blogspot.com

Ako po si Gian angelesTo end it all!

Well first of all mapapansin nyo na wala na po ang chatbox ko...and lastly mapapansin nyo na purong tagalog ang aking post ngayon kaya sige para matapos na lahat sasabihin ko na ang lahat ng nangayari. Akala kasi ng iba eh nagtatakip ako. Hayaan nyo na ako na lang ang magsabi....At P.S. Cory hindi ikaw ang sinasabihan namin sa cbox kundi si Dhen at Gagong Dani at kung gusto nyo akong harapin pa at hiyaain sige im inviting you...AOL 17th floor PBCOM Tower, Valero cor. Ayala Ave Makati City. Shift Tune 10-7
Ako po si Giancarlo Angeles. Manloloko, babaero at isang walang kuwentang tao. Sumbatero at isa pa mahilig mang-blackmail. Niloko ko ang babaeng nagmahal sa akin ng lubusan na si Corazon de Guia. Nahuli niya akong nambabae last Aug 5 2005. Ninais ko po siyang balikan ngunit sa kasamaang palad ako ay nabaliw at gumawa ng mga bagay na hindi magagawa ng isang tao na nasa matinong pagiisip. Humiga ako sa kalye matapos magkunwaring magpapakamatay sa harap ng St. Paul college Manila. Sinubukan kong takutin siya na magiskandalo ako sa kanyang dean at tinawagan din ang kanyang professor upang takutin siya. Sa sobrang selos sa bagong laking nanliligaw sa kanya ay iniipit ko ang utang ko sa kanya ng nagkakahaagang 3k piso. Makapal ang mukha ko at wala akong kuwentang nilalang. Pangit at sadyang walng kuwenta. Ngayon kakaibiganin mo pa ba ako...?
Ngayon sana matahaimik na kayong tatlo at wag na akong gagambalain pa. Sa mga taong nakakakita nito wag na huwag ninyo akong gagawing kaibigan. Dahil baka matulad kayo sa kanya. Oo wala nga daw po akong kaibigan. oo wala nga.
Sino kaya ang mga taong aking nakaksama tuwing ako ay malungkot at matamlay. Ang mga walang kuwentang kabarkada ko na kahit anong oras ay handang pumunta sa anumang gimikan upang damayan at pasiyahin ang isat isa. Sino kaya ang mga taong tuwing sabado at linggo ay lagi kong nakakakuentuhan sa harap ng lugawan namin at masayang masayng nakikipag tawanan habang kasama ang mga kapamilya namin. oo si Kaye at Nicka pala. Sino ang mga taong nakaksaslubong ko at palaging kapalitan ng Hi at hello sa AOL floor sa 17th floor ng PBCOM tower. Sino ang gabi gabi ay laging nakangiti at kakuwntuhan ko sa aking work station at palaging nakabantay at nakikipag palitan ng kuento at kuro kuro tungkol sa trabaho. Ah si Vince, Caco, Krisitne, Eric, Mike, Shine at di ko na masabi kung sino pa.
Sino si Ram at Chanty? Oo mga taong walang kuwenta pala. Sino si Pao, Harold, Achilles at iba pang tao na gagong gumagawa ng testimonial ko. Oo isa akong walang kuwentang tao. At alam ko sa akin ka lang ganyan. Pero alam ko sa ibang tao hindi....Sino si Brian at ang wave 10. Sino sila mga walng kuwentang tao.
Sino si LIza, Caloy at Cha Cha. Jeff at Jr. Louie at Don Paul....
Ngayon masaya na kayo....
Maraming salamat sa mga taong nandiyan na kaibigan ko...ala daw kasi
Ngayon sana matahimik na kayo at magkanya kanya na tayo.....
Written at Wednesday, August 09, 2006 by Terminus.

~*> here's my message:

una sa lahat. wag kang sarcastic. What kind of moron would believe all those na u posted? puro ka kplastikan and I hate ur friggin guts to the core. Wala pa sa 1/4 yang mga pinost mo to describe what kind of person you are and what kind of hell i went through when we were together. alam mo ba kung bakit hnd matapos tapos to? kasi alam mo alam ko na hindi ka pa over and hindi mo pa ma-admit sa sarili mo kung ano ang mga fault mo.

Friends? Do u fucking know what the word means? Baka gusto mo sabihin ko kay Poy kung ano talaga ang tingin mo sakanya. And please, don't even try to tell me na true friends mo ang ka work mo dahil kakasimula mo palang jan. For all I know ur placing ur best foot forward again, leaving all the people around u oblvious to ur real nature. Napaka galing mo pa naman gumawa ng facade.

saka, Ang kapal din naman pati ng mukha mo magyabang about sa trabaho mo. In the first place, two year course lang ang natapos mo at informatics ka lang din. Akala mo kung sino kang manlait... bkt? eh diba kick out ka din naman? at ang alam pa ng dad mo eh dahil may kaaway ka sa uste at bubugbugin ka ang hnd nila alam eh sadyang drop out ka. At para sabihin ko sa'yo sa jollibee ka lang din nagstart at may connection ka lang din kaya ka nakapasok dun. same with Solar, ka-org lang ng dad mo sa couples ang head kaya ka nakapasok kaya wag kang umasta na akala mo kung sino kang Diyos na dapat sambahin. if u feel so insecure then y don't u go ahead and kill urself? magyayabang ka pa eh wala ka din naman ibubuga. hindi mo ba napapansin na sa lahat ng conversation natin at sa lahat ng tag na we exchanged ang topic natin ay ikaw. Ikaw kasi ang may problema and I pray na matauhan ka if not now then in the near future.
Wag mo ko hamunin dahil haharapin talaga kita. At hindi talaga kita uurungan alam mo yan.

~*> hindi naman ako masyadong galit dba? haha...

2006-07-22T13:32:00.000-07:00

What is Wasted?

Hearing: Leave (Get out)
Where@: san pa eh d sa comp lab nanaman!
Whatup: oh...wala naman... kakabasa ko lang ng mga pinagtestihan ni mhack...sakit ng tyan ko...saka gumawa lang ng mga testi sa mga tao ^_^

Haaaaay....friggin review... I had a really bad start today. First, I was 20 minutes late for my class. Originally, I was really going to be late for only a couple of minutes...kasi naman nakatulog ako ng straight sa sobrang pagod for the past few days cause of the friggin research thing and cause of the case study kaya after dinner last night I was really really knocked out at pagkadikit ko ng kama...ayun, tulog na...haha! I know...I know...kadiri diba? But what was I to do? My plan last night was that I'd semi study for the board and ta-da! Humihilik na ko right after dinner at hindi na ko nagising not until my roommate woke me up the morning after for breakfast. Ick with buhay biik. I was so wasted from sleep and it felt like such a drag to get up from bed and I had to super hilod at magkuskos kasi nga I failed to take a shower the night before and I really took a lot of time taking a bath... So yun na nga...I was told that Ms. Magbanua won't be around for afternoon class kaya I wanted to text my sister to inform her. Here comes a text saying I had zero balance and so I rushed palabas sa gilid to get load. Here's more...nadapa pa ko sa hagdan habang tinetext ko ate ko! Nakakahiya! Laughtrip! Good thing nobody was there to witness my fall from grace. Thank heavens! At yun ang reason kung bakit ako naging 20 minutes late... Here I come rushing in at class right? And there they were answering the 10th question for a friggin pre-test. Which they passed once I got a seat beside Lea and which I friggin failed automatically kasi nga ni isa wla akong nasagot because I'm friggin 20 minutes late!!! How in the world would I have guessed na may pre-test pala!? So while Ms. Araneta was already discussing in front I was busy mopping about, being so frustrated and all with the darn test na super dali at kaya ko i-perfect if only I had been earlier and if only hindi lang ako nadapa. Kaya nga...I vow never to be late again for all my review classes and I promise I'll make it up for that stupid test. Promise yan...and yeah...not to text while climbing up the stairs na din...haha!

The only thing that I was thankful for was that atleast hindi ako bad hair day today like I've been for the past 2 days... What is wasted talaga for me.

Right...thank God cause I can slightly feel the pressure with the board already to serve as motivation to study. 25 out of 94 or 96 Paulinians failed the recent board exam. Dropping our school to a tremendous 73% passing rate na uber baba at uber pressure on our part. Actually the class that I was pertaining to that I was late for was a review class. Normally for a senior, it's taken ng 2nd sem but for us, since they're aiming for a 100%, they made it both 1st and 2nd sem. Better to be sure than to be sorry I guess. Lotsa sacrifice for our part kasi wala naman talaga kaming saturday class...review lang. Oh yeah...I have an RN for a sister-in-law...get that? a registered nurse. Yey! pumasa si ate Charry, the only Dator to pass in the board! yahoooooo! yayaman na kame! hahaha joke! more pressure is on me I guess... We're eating out later!!! Yipee!

Not Luk Foo I hope cause we just ate there last sunday and I'm eating there again with my friends on tuesday to celebrate Tin's (aka xtn_orange_pseat) birthday! we're getting older na talaga by the day.

I miss Jithe (armalayt), Tin (Niger), Mama Les (Mami Tubi), and Lea (Kabit)... super nakakatawa kasi mga hiritan namin lalo ng mga tungkol sa mga jologs na e-mail at mga meeting namin ng S.A.W.I. (Samahang Alone at Walang Iniibig) at W.A.G.I. (What's Ap Grupong Inlab)!!! Laughtrip! We laugh sooooo hard na naiinis na minsan classmates namin kasi nga ingay namin. Oh yeah...miss ko na din sandwich ni Mai at mga mala-Muslim na mga burloloy ni Joy at ang mga impersonation ni mama Les...

I miss other things more though... it makes me too sad to reckon.

Iyak nalang ako.

2006-07-17T17:03:00.000-07:00

@ My Wits End (for the Nth time)

Hearing: people typing away
Where@: school comp. lab
Whatup: I wish there was no such thing as a case study and school requirements for that matter...

Argggh! I spent like 2 hours dito sa comp. lab and upto no avail...this requirement that Mrs. Reyes is asking us to submit is one tough cookie... damn! ang hirap nyang hanapin in fairness... plus I have my case study to worry about again... haay.

Can I just die right now?

2006-06-25T23:56:00.000-07:00

Achtung Baby, Bang Bang

Hearing: Stars are Blind by Paris Hilton
Where@: sala pa din
Whatup: oh nothing really just blogging cause I know I wouldn't have the chance to do this again for some time cause of my busy sched.

Have you seen Paris Hilton's video for her new song? I swear you hafta see what a slut/ho/tramp she is...So ok...the song has this reggae beat to it but c'mon I can't possibly like a song by a certified airhead bimbo like her. Naman! Wala lang, just ranting. Just remembered the time when my roommates and I were watching her sex scandal. She's pretty but I never really liked her. I abhor airheads to the core.

Oh yeah I'm in our living room right now and guess what? Nixon, our house help's son who's 4 years old, is playing again with his thing. His you know...his tiny bit of appendage or whatever you wanna call it. And yes I can see the full view of it cause he's just on the couch next to mine. He's even spreading his legs for the hell of it. This doesn't surprise me though cause this is like the 7th time I've seen him do it. He does it on the floor, on the sofa in the other room, on the carpet, well just about anywhere I guess. My mom was hella shocked when she saw it the first time and I assured her that according to Freud it was normal for 3-5 years old children to play with their thing. Under the Psychosexual theory, this is the genital stage. Akalain mong may explanation pala yun! haha! However, you'd definitely be shocked like my mom if you had no clue to Freud's theories and rationalizations of his preoccupation with sex.

Achtung: he's just stopped playing with his thing just now. Buti nalang walang bisita...

I can't wait to hear mass later and then be back sa dorm and hopefully get my money back. Hopefully.

Arrrrgh...my leg's hurting again. I've been watching all these documents pa naman about people dying cause of heart disease and stress. I just have this gut feeling that I'll be one of them. I hafta do something about all these stress and my weight.

It's almost 12 nn...hafta go!

2006-06-24T00:54:00.000-07:00

Dare me

Hearing: Endless, a Silent Whisper by Urbandub (my fave!)
Where@: sala sa bahay
Whatup: got a chance to blog again after a very, very long time - after remembering what my password is...haha!

First of all, I am bankrupt... my mom's not giving the same allowance as she did the previous years when I was in college because of the lawyer's fee they hafta pay so as to get our space back from the greedy politicians of dear old Pasay city...anyway that's a different story. But the thing is, I only have 100 bucks left for the whole fo next week... How the hell will I survive a week with only 100 pesos? *Sigh... eh class fund pa lang na 50 a week tas 10 pa for our xerox fund! so that's 40 pesos left for me in a week...get it...40 pesos... kasi naman...may pera naman kasi ako sa isang tao jan na saksakan ng inconsiderate... alam mo yun?! inis na inis na nga ko...why in God's name do I hafta beg just to get back money that's MINE... I feel like habol ako ng habol at mukha na kong tanga...and frankly, napapagod na ko. If only money grew on trees. 7k's no joke added by the fact that I'm bankrupt kaya nga I'm in dire need of that money. Problem is with the person na pinautang ko. Andami dami daming gastusin as in! I'm out of my wits cause I am so friggin out of fcukin money! Andaming utang sakin ng mom ko na, roughly around 20k na sya pero hindi ko masingil kasi diba nakakahiya naman saka andami na din nyang gastusin over me n my tution n the dorm n everything else... So the one person na pwde ko talaga singilin, napaka walang konsensya at ayaw akong bayaran even if I spell it out to him how much I need the money...He just doesn't get it. He's just so fcukin narrow minded. Baka naman he wants me to starve to death muna at mabaon sa utang... Maybe he just wants to see me miserble... I'm oblivious to what's running in his head but I'm still hoping that he'll be conscientious enough to give me back my money. I gave him enough time, more than 3 years para makapag ipon... I'm not mean you see. I just friggin need the money. Darn it. I hate beggin for it, sometimes naiisip ko talaga that I'm so sick n tired na that I'd rather not talk to him n just let him have the money if that's what makes him happy. He's so full of himself.

Anyway, I'm back at school n back at the dorm. Same life. Same story. What's new are my dorm mates, I got three new roomies. 1st is Hanah from Marikina who's a grad at Poveda. 2nd is Cherish, from Bataan. (Same province of Nicole, lead pussy cat for PCD) Cherish has a yellow belt for Taekwondo... (Woah! haha!) Last is Coel...(cool name huh?) which stands for Corazon and Elmer, her parents... she's a grad of St. Anthony's at Singalong which is pretty near St. Paul and St. Scho.. Ala lang...to sum it all up, they're all cool and we get along pretty well and I cannot be more relieved because I've been praying for good roomies before getting back at the dorm. Another thing that's new is we have a chef st the dorm. Figure's why our dorm fee sky rocketed from 30k to 35k... anyway, her name's Doris Crosby and I tell you, eating at the dorm has never been more exciting. I've never looked forward to meals at the dorm till recently. I so know that I'm gonna have a more difficult time now slimming down for my brother n my sister's wedding due December n January.

We had the annual acquiantance party yesterday. I met my "babies" for the said event. I had 2 gurls n a guy. Monette, Jho, n Emerson. Super ka text ko nga sila the night before. I helped them with their costumes n as expected I couldn't force Emerson to wear a costume, well, I was even lucky to convince him to go to school cause he didn't want to attend the friggin parade in the morning. Anyway he still showed up sa school. Yep I still have my knack of persuasion... I was emcee at the college team building later that afternoon at the courtyard together with Riz, Pippo n Chin. It was cool at the start pero nainis talaga ako kasi hindi nagpparticipate kung sino pa ung dpat na nagppartcipate n that's what sucks. We spent time n effort organizing stuff n preparing games tas ganun lang sila...unnerving talaga! anyway na badtrip talaga ako seriously not even the free shirt I got was able to cheer me up... anyway, pinalipas ko nalang. I was not to mop around because of that naman...

What else is up? hmm, I'm classmates again with Cai n the rest of the barkada so all's good but our section is soooo damn passive that I have a hard time reciting. Parang ang awkward kasi. *Sigh

I soooo wanna graduate already para makapag ipon na.

2006-05-02T21:22:00.000-07:00

Like Glue to the Phils.

Hearing: Sa Piling Mo (watching's more like it..)
Where@: Livingroom
Whatup: Groggy and Sick

Right after my duty at PGH NICU, I went straight to the NBI Clearing Office at Carriedo, Quiapo to get my NBI Clearance which was supposedly for my US Immigration but sad to say that according to the immigration officer which my sister-in-law saw today my petition may be considered null and void since my lola, who was the one who petitioned me, has long been dead. However, there might still be some hope if the US Embassy wont be able to notice that fact and if I may still be carried by my lola. Sobrang cross my fingers talaga! Super pray and hope that everything turns out ok. Cause if not, I will be stuck here in the Philippines for as long as I get hired directly from the states…grabe! It’s good in a way cause I can work at PGH which would be a dream but I hafta weigh it out with the opportunity of earning more money… sana maging ok yung petition!!! This so tragic!!!

2006-04-16T22:02:00.000-07:00

Immersion Blues

Hearing: wala...just the whirring of the electric fan
Where@: livingroom, in front of the tv
Whatup: packing my stuff, doing some checking before I go

masarap to...before I go...pinabaunan pa ko ng sermon ng nanay ko...nice...

anyway, I can't say more cause my sister's gonna use the computer already...

I'll be missing a lot even if its just for merely 10 days...

2006-04-05T07:46:00.000-07:00

Confused

Hearing: Papa Cologne by Parokya
Where@: tambayan again... the usual...
Whatup: drained, drained, drained.

School's a mess! I'm drained after only 2 straight days of pure CHN stuff... arrrgggh! I'll just pooof come immersion... hope not!

I've also been thinking a lot lately about some things that are going about in my life particularly about... *Sigh! Everything that's previously clear is now a bit blurred... Sad. It would've been better if I just didn't friggin' see those darn messages. This definitely makes it all the more confusing. I had plans conjured up in my brain already and now it's all in disarray! This is frustrating! And now Alex wants to get in the picture!!! Waaaaah! What do I do?! I can't just freakin' ignore him cause I've done that for more than a year already and the poor chap would feel that he had his self esteem trampled upon by no less than me. Again for the nth time. I hate doing this, hurting other's feelings. But I can't be responsible all the time, right? I can't also pretend that I love him cause that would be lying.

So much for the blah... Hafta go to class now.

2006-04-01T00:00:00.000-08:00

Black Listed

Hearing: Niki Gil's Vaseline Jingle...haha!
Where@: bahay lang
Whatup: updates on my personal lucifer

Guess who I was texting last night? None other than tin...hahaha Rhein's bestfriend and we're talking about no less than my personal lucifer...the A-hole of my life, Gian. Who would've thought that Gian's not only putting effort into getting me back but is also talking with rhein and even asking her bestfriend for help so that they could have some reconciliation or something. Talk about inconsistent! Not that I want to get back with him, on the contraire, that thought has never passed my mind. After all he's put me through! Over my dead body! For me, it only goes to show what a heck of loser he really is.

Hearing me talk like this might seem that I'm really mad at him but I'm actually not. I'm just irritated with all that he's done to blackmail me added by all the stuff that I've recently discovered with him and Rhein... Deep inside me I pity him for all he's worth and the pathetic life that he leads. I'm not that mean and even though he's put me into some terrible shits before, the goodness left in me still prays that he'd change and have a better life and still find someone that he could really love - love with its true meaning.

Anyway, now's not the time to feel sad kasi today's Dani's birthday!!! Happy Happy Birthday!!! Hope you have a good one...!

2006-03-31T11:28:00.000-08:00

Yey!

Hearing: this funny song that imitates the song "My Humps" but it's tagalog...hahaha!
Where@: Tambayan
Whatup: my bago na kong blog!!!

hey guys tag me!!! welcome to my new constructed blog!!! duly created to ward off haters!

Happy Birthday Dani! Have a very happy one...